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Being on the bench is triggering my anxiety in a way I’ve never experienced before. I’m in a constant state of panic, have chest tightness, feel like I am short of breath or someone is strangling me..

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Sorry to hear this - two suggestions that may help. 1) Eating healthy and exercise will help in calming your nerves and giving you an outlet. Just drinking yourself to sleep is at best a short term relief and try not to become alcoholic. 2) What if layoffs do happen? Is your resume up to date? Have you posted it on various job sites? Are you actively applying to roles? Here is the deal. ACN is a big revolving door, and their lay-off decisions are made without emotion. Thus most employees are at risk of losing their jobs. Your best plan of action is to be prepared. The market is good, and the search process will give you the much needed confidence that all will be fine. You’ll notice the marked difference in your anxiety being reduced. I’ve been in your shoes and wish I had acted upon it sooner. It helped me, and I hope it helps you too. Good luck!

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So helpful! Especially your second point since I could not get past my anxious thoughts to think about this objectively. Thank you so much.

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And cannot fall asleep without having wine to calm me down. What do I do???

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I have been on the bench since beginning of January. Some leadership told me to start looking for a new job. I kind of just accepted my reality and am trying to look forward to finding a new job and finding a new place to grow. Sucked at first but I would rather not work in a negative toxic environment...

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Why? Are you worried about having nothing to do or is it more utilization concerns?

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Both. I’ve never liked being on the bench but also worried about rumors of layoffs.

It’s a rough bench for everyone. Been on the bench since December. Just gotta know that it’s not that big of a deal and if you accept that you can’t control it you’ll probably feel better.

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Hope I’m not coming across as antagonistic. Happy to chat more about it if it helps. I know anxiety is tough to figure out

When I was feeling high anxiety like you described above OP, I couldn’t do any HITT exercises since it felt the same as my anxiety. It felt like it just made the anxiety last longer. My anxiety felt similar. Like someone was stepping on my chess pushing it and putting all their weight on me. Yoga worked better for me at that time in my life. I also went to a doctor and was prescribed Xanax which I could only use occasionally.

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I had never felt that in my life before. It was triggered by an unexpected break-up. It lasted a week before I finally called a doctor. I would wake up in the middle of the night with my chest hurting. I thought maybe it was in my head. I’m young and fit. But in the morning when I did deep breathes I could feel the place where it hurt so I knew it was real. I did go to therapy too. I still experience it from time to time but only lasts a day or two.

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Sometimes I have to excuse myself to walk outside to try to breathe but nothing is helping. My heart just races and I feel like I have lack of oxygen. Do I need meds?

I am feeling the same. I am updating my resume and getting it out. Also exercising

I just started at this firm in September so freaking out a bit.

Omg. Me too... I seriously never had this problem before. I can't tell if it's the job or my age making me so sensitive.

Try breathwork. I feel you. You’ll get through this. DM me if you need more tips. 🙏

Try getting a high dose of magnesium and glutathione via IV. Many companies will give you a vitamin iv at your home or office. Magnesium and ashwagandha will alleviate the stress.

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