Five months into my first job out of undergrad. I hate the culture of the firm and am miserable with the work, and it’s bringing back my depression. Many nights I come home, take NyQuil and go (cont.)

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OP going through recruitment cycle is tough. My spouse and I are both going through it for different reasons. The bigger issue is how you are feeling about your current job. If you hate the culture and work, is that lesser pain or the recruitment cycle? Think about it this way: the recruitment cycle - tedious as it is - has hope on the other end. What do the current job have except more misery?

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I have been traveling for a while at the cost of my kid and even though recruiting again is a pain, I think about the advantages of a non-traveling job: spending time with my kid EVERYDAY. Which reminds me, I need to prep for interviews...

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Hey MC1 - the first year out of college is often super tough, regardless of job. Keep your head up, and if this is crushing you, get out. Don’t wait for a new job.

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To bed without dinner. I know I need to get out of this job, but every time I open my resume or look at openings I just get overwhelmed and sad about going through the recruitment process again.

I completely understand your dilemma because I’m in the same boat! I just hit the 1 year mark. I started thinking about leaving around the 6-7 month mark, but wanted to “wait a year” to make a more educated decision, and validate my opinions/observations with some seniors i trusted.

My issue: I was working remotely about 85% of the year, have no connections with my practice (that I don’t want to work in), and had a really boring/insignificant role for a long time. I was understimulated, my anxiety/dep was getting worse, and worried that I will be highly stressed on future projects and won’t be able to take care of myself.

And now that it’s Q4, I’m hesitant to apply to jobs because with the holidays coming, it’s not the most promising time to apply. I’m still learning about what the recruitment cycle even is, and i decided i wanted to leave like 2 months ago. Nonetheless - want to let you know you’re not alone. Give yourself time. I wanted a new job by Jan - but doesn’t seem like it’s going to work that way. I get so overwhelmed because college made it easy to apply to jobs and there are so many qualified people out there applying to the same roles, and I feel like I have nothing to offer. I’m lost.

But I’m going to start small and set weekly or bi-weekly goals: send email, set up coffee meeting, edit resume, stalk ppl from X company on LinkedIn. And just learn about the types of roles I can apply to, so i can apply with more confidence. There’s a lot that’s out of our control in job hunting, so instead of setting deadlines for myself, I’m going to just focus on getting my questions answered, and being consistent with my search and networking. Hope this offers some consolation/ideas, and best of luck!

This is a really tough year for everyone in any situation post grad. Stay put for a small time, just to make sure you want to leave and not that you would have this issue anywhere immediately post grad.

It took me a full year to get where I wanted to be in the firm, and 2 years later, I'm starting the shifting process again. If you don't want to shift around at your firm, I at least recommend seeing a therapist, putting in work to build new communities, and keeping up with old friends and family.

Job searches can take about 6 months for the right opportunity, and yes that's daunting, so figure out if you really want to leave or if you're craving a change of pace that you could get in your own firm.

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