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I really don't want to. But I'm also too scared to commit suicide.

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The reason why I don't want to is just my mom. She's been through 2 major deaths in her life already.

Or I can just die duh

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No. You can turn it around. Yes, it might seem overwhelming at this point in time, but there’s a ton of unfulfilled potential in you.

My spouse and I are supposed to be retiring in our early 40s (5-8 years from now). He’s begun to shift mental gears preparing for what daily life will look like during retirement, new goals and interests, and started asking for my input.

Except the only goal I have is that lifelong thrumming obsession with death that you can never say out loud, just elude to with terms like “stressed out” and “tired” as masks for “self-destructive”, “blood thirsty”, “hallucinative”

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Hey just wanted to shout out to everyone in the group. You are the most understanding and supportive people I see online. Haven’t posted anything about my personal struggles but have been constantly encouraged by your sharing and encouragements. Thanks for being so kind!❤️

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How do you deal with irrational anxiety whenever your boss is saying “hey let’s schedule 1:1, I’ve got a few things to discuss”? I’ve never had a bad performance rating before, quite the opposite I have received positive feedback. I also know 99% of the time this meeting is harmless and my anxiety has been proven wrong many times. But I’m still always on edge whenever this kind of meeting is scheduled. 😩

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Facilitated a workshop today, neither died nor felt like I was going to die of anxiety. First time for me 😊

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