Got out of a toxic relationship that I KNOW was toxic but my heart is still heavy and I want him back. Did anyone experience this? How did you overcome it?

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Happened to me before. After a year of on and off one day I just looked at it realistically, saw all his poor behavior, and focused on how that wasn’t a lifestyle I was willing to live.
Honestly I just liked the way he made me feel, there was nothing special about him. There are so many men out there, you’ll always find another.
Really look at your relationship, instead of just the sweet memories. Really look at the man he is, not the built-up one in your head.

I also figured out a plan to work on myself/my life and it gave me purpose. Made me realize how I don’t need anyone but myself to be happy or content. I used to be way too much of a romantic.
I’m happily married to an incredible man, it just works. You’ll find better, move on.

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Have a busy life. Idle time brings up these thoughts.

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When you’re in love, it’s kind of an addiction. You are in withdrawal. It’ll pass. Just be sure to keep busy in the interim

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Happened to me, it took a lot of time for me to formulate my memories and truly believe the story that the relationship wasn’t the right thing for me

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Losing something/something that involved a certain level of emotional vulnerability whether bad or good, will actually activate the grieving process. It’s normal. But you are the only one that can decide when to overcome the grief. Feel how you feel, then let yourself move on accordingly.

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Write down all the ways the relationship was toxic and all the reasons he is not good for you.

Read through what you've written and ask yourself if that is what you want or what you think you deserve.

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