Hi all. So I'm that SC in the other thread that talked about my abortion story and man, I am getting riled up. I think I'm looking to vent and some advice.
My mom is extremely conservative, doesn't know I was raped and had an abortion, and how this all affects me. I have to refrain myself from giving anything away. I've had urges to be honest to attempt to change her views. It could work, scar her for life either way, or not work and I realize cont

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Just how she thinks it's okay to control my body, which could ruin my relationship with her.
I'm also getting urges to start telling my story and stop being silent. But I know I can't, or can I?
I have co-workers all over my social media, including my boss. But it feels like the stakes are so high and I'm tired of being silent.
I'm also starting to get triggered, majorly. Especially with barrett's appointment. I literally am getting scared of having sex and am losing my sex drive, completely. I was on birth control when I first got pregnant. I'm scared.
I'm just scared in general. I know that if the world turned upside down and abortions became completely illegal,I will go to the street, protest like my life depends on it, and who knows what could happen.
Idk wtf I'm getting at right now. I'm just scared, and I feel like half of our country doesn't give a fuck

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We only have one life to live and YOU are in control of yours. If you feel like your healing will begin once you start speaking about your pain, then do it. Because you’re in control of your story. Don’t give that power to someone else.
I hate that you went through that situation but I wish you nothing but luck on your journey to healing.

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Hi, sending you so much love and positive energy, I wish I could give you a hug. I completely hear you on the trauma you experienced and then seeing such irrational things happening with controlling women’s bodies. I think when you feel ready, and want to, you should share your story. You can start by telling your mother you were raped. You can go into the next level of details, if you feel comfortable. A lot of women and men think abortion is “immoral” until something happens to them, that makes them change their mind. You may not be able to change your mother’s mind, but you can at the very least share your burden and pain. If it was my daughter, sister, friend, I’d want to know and be there for them

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And whoever posted the laugh reaction on your question has a special place in hell. They will probably do the same to this comment but don’t let them get to you. It says more about them than it does about you if they feel another woman’s account of her rape is something to laugh at.

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You need to think/do what is best for you. You are the only person who will do that. While you’re so worried about other people’s feelings, is thinking about yours?

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Sending you strength and love and hugs!

I am sorry, OP. Your account on the other thread was harrowing. I don’t have any advice except to maybe suggest therapy if you think that might help. I agree with you that keeping silent under the current circumstances can disturb your mental peace but I also suggest looking out for yourself first. I agree with another D1 saying that you could tell your mother about the rape even if you don’t tell her about the abortion. But at the end of the day, you know your family best and must do what it takes for you to be at peace. Do you have any siblings/cousins you are close to you could confide in?

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