How can I find the will to keep living?
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First thing first, since it wasn’t obvious from your post: are you seeing a therapist right now?

Secondly, I just moved to a new city, and unlike you, I’m currently not working! So you’re ahead! I’ve been forcing myself to go to networking/meetup events and as much as I hated it at the beginning, it gets better and I’ve had solid potential new friends. My confidence and mood also improves because I realized I’ve been unintentionally isolating myself. You just have to push through and trust the process.

Other ideas include moving to the new city through transfer and not with a new job. Don’t know if it’s going to solve the problem honestly, because you’ll know even fewer people there.

Hang in there OP.

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Maybe just get the next best one instead of waiting too long? Also, playing a bit of devil’s advocate, why don’t you also go to meetups in the current city? Just want to help to make you feel better sooner!

Thanks for the well wishes :)

please let me know if you need to connect OP. Life’s tough and you don’t need to do it alone. I also feel very isolated and friend-less, and I can relate to what you’re feeling. Here for you if you need me 💕💕💕

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Op I’m dealing with a lot of the same things and could honestly use a friend. Maybe we can help Escher other through it

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I’ve struggled with depression for years, I had thought things were better since I had so many “friends”, but I realize that only one of my many friends actually asks me to come hang out. That friend recently moved, and it has made me realize that not a single “friend” has ever asked me how I’m doing. I have tried to talk to them, but it’s quite clear that nobody is interested in what I might be going through in my life if I’m not partying with them.

After the one that would at least invite me to hang out with everyone left, I realized I haven’t heard from anybody other than work emails/pings.

This combined with my built up depression has made me realize I just need a new start, especially since I’m not happy with the people at work either.

I began looking for a new job in a new city that I can see myself being happy in starting a couple months ago, but it’s been really rough, especially since I haven’t been at my current role a long time.

I know 2 months isn’t long to look for a job, but being someone who already is on anti depressants, still cries every night to sleep (if I can even sleep properly), and has been living this way for god knows how long.

The only thing stopping me from suicide so far has been my limited remaining family, but I’m getting to a point where I can’t take it anymore. I have hobbies, but I’m so clamped up on the inside all the time, that I can’t even do them for more than 5 minutes because I’m going so crazy on the inside, as much as I love them (exercise/sports, drawing).

How can I find the strength to keep going?

I could use a friend too D1 😞

I’ve dealt with many of these feelings before. One thing I’d like to mention that others have not, is that sometimes small changes can be much more helpful that big changes. I’ve tried both. Getting a new job can be a fresh start, but like most great things it comes with added stress. De-stressing your life is one of the best things you can do for depression beyond therapy / medication. Try leaving work earlier, scheduling some three day weekends, joining a meditation group, a book club, start running in the morning (a great stress release), etc.

Other than that, if you need someone to chat with, DM me.

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