How do you all deal with internalized racism. I am proud to be black however the past few years I have lived and worked in places that are all white. I have experienced all sorts of aggression, racism, abuse you name it as I was the only one. It seems that since I didnt have a proper outlet to release all of this I have internalized and am now projecting this. I have moved now to a more diverse area but I am still struggling a lot

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Visit more black cities and indigenous black countries. Surround yourself with black excellence, black stories, black inspiration, black everything!

Your paradigm will shift gradually.

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Well, first, I’m proud of you for sharing. No longer internalizing what’s hurting you and acknowledging the struggle is a great first step to healing.

I’m curious though..the struggling and projecting..how is that showing up in your life?

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Trying to seem non threatening and making myself palatable to them , getting all nervous and quiet when I am the only one, also if there is another black person at work all of a sudden there is competition between us. I don't like being the token and I don't care for that so it's upsetting to me that I have internalized that crap

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