How do you come out of your childhood trauma? I am turning 30. I had an alcoholic & abusive father (to my mother). He was very quiet and loving but when drunk he turned into a completely different person. I saw him coming home drunk daily, abuse my mother and I never really had a normal childhood. He died when I was 20.
How can I come out of this childhood trauma? Not a single day when I can't think about my childhood. Have affected my personality in different ways and still impacts my life.

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Therapy. It’s the only way. Make sure to get one that specializes in childhood trauma and abuse. You can come out on the other side of this and have healthy, loving relationships but you have to work through all of the damage from the past first.

I grew up in a volatile house with a dad who could be kind and loving but also abusive and terrifying. My brother sexually abused me for years. I was never good enough or perfect enough in my mother’s eyes. I had severe trust issues, severe self esteem issues. I was a drug addict and sexually active way too young and had so many issues with sex for years (sex with people I didn’t want to because I didn’t know how to say no, etc.).

In short, I was a hot freakin mess for years, but was able to work through my issues with therapy. I have been in a loving relationship and married for a very long time now. It can happen!!

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You’re welcome. I think one of the greatest benefits of therapy was that I learned how my childhood impacted my current thoughts and behaviors. Once I was able to connect the two, I was able to make better choices and live the life I wanted for myself instead of living a reactionary life that was being controlled by the behaviors and emotions of the past.

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Al Anon, Adult Children of Alcoholics,
Therapy, and turning to Spirituality.

The past only holds on to US when we hold onto IT. Everyone is just doing their best, and a disease like alcoholism is hard to reconcile when reflecting back on childhood. Your father had a disease, and neither that fact nor his actions were your fault.

The greatest self discovery is when one realizes that their parents were flawed and just trying to do their best, and they became who they were because of how they were raised. I find freedom when I realize I am not my parents, and remember I always have a choice, but that choice is always “in the now”. I can’t go back and change the past, nor can I control the future. All I have is now.

Oh, and I love this quote:

“You change the meaning of the past by forgiving”. - Alan Watts

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See a trauma therapist! I'm 26 and just started, I wish I started sooner.

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That helps a lot D1.. hopefully things turn out better for you from here...thanks a lot!

If you have 5k laying around I highly recommend the trauma workshops at the Meadows in wickenberg AZ. Intense and life changing. They also have workshops on love addiction and love avoidance too.

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OP, please consider looking at EMDR. It is a type of therapy which can help you properly process childhood trauma. My husband had 6 sessions and it has transformed his life. It was hard work but well worth it.

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