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I feel guilty for letting my family down when they are dependent on me to earn. I'm the sole earner in the family and have been trying to be their safety net ever since dad passed away few years ago leaving us in debt. Sole support was my relationship. Left a high paying foreign job to get married with bf of 7 years. Broke up on coming back. I'm exhausted now. Not motivated to perform in current job. No energy to search another job.
Therapy, meditation, medicenes- nothing helps. Where do i go?

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1)Therapy
2)Brainstorm ways that you can help family make income on their own - thereby lightening the load on you. May take an initial investment from you, more so than already,
3) take two additional weeks off during Christmas time. Plan ahead now.

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Stop beating yourself up for trying to pursue and commit to love. That is admirable. Many of us don’t have that courage. I’m proud of you for doing that.

Stop being so hard on yourself. You lost something. It’s okay to mourn. Let yourself. You don’t have to power through. Take the time and really feel it, mourn it and you’ll slowly realize that things were less ideal than you thought, that the good memories are still there for you to savor and enjoy, no one can take those good feelings and memories from you and eventually you’ll get to a place where you can be sad something is over but glad it was something you experienced.

No one is motivated in December. Roll into it and take some time off, most projects are encouraging it during this time, take advantage.

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