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I feel like my depression traded 2 decades of potential and happiness for hurt, despair, and suicide attempts. I have it under control for the moment and I am trying to rebuild my life but I just can’t help wonder what might have been if I hadn’t had to suffer through this. I know I can’t go back and change things, but I also just can’t seem to stop these thoughts. Has anyone out there experienced this? I just want to focus on moving forwards as long as I can keep my depression under control.

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I was depressed during my teenage years so I understand always looking back and thinking about how I could have developed as a person if I hadn’t been depressed. Now, I try to focus on the present because it reminds me I’m so much better than where I was and it’s because of me.

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