I think I’m having a mental breakdown. I really have tried hard to deal with my depression (therapist/meds/exercise/etc.) but I’m at the end of my rope. I’ve only been at my job for a little under a year, so I don’t feel like I can tell anyone or try and take leave.

I’m literally just crying at my computer for several hours a day and responding to emails without generating any work product. This isn’t who I am.

Has anyone dealt with this before? What did you do?

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See a doctor and take a medical leave of absence. Saved my life about 2 years ago.

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Thank you so much! Did some more googling and looks like UMass themselves are offering this course online - https://www.umassmemorialhealthcare.org/umass-memorial-medical-center/services-treatments/center-for-mindfulness/mindfulness-programs/mbsr-8-week-online-live

I’ve been feeling this way too

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OP I’m so sorry you are going through this. I have bouts of this feeling many times too 😔 do you know what is triggering your depression? If yes, find a way to avoid that. If it’s work, take time off!! Your mental health >>> your job!! And hang in there, take care of yourself! 💛

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Ask to take leave. Most companies offer it. You need to take some time for yourself.

Do you know what the root cause is? Do you dislike your job? Your partner? Where you live? Or is it something deep rooted?

The moment you need to cry at work is a huge red flag to stop and take time for yourself. I've sat on the restroom floor at work crying before. It is not a good place to be and I'm so sorry you're going through this.

With a bit of self care, it can get better :)

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Right there with you.

So sorry you're going through this 😔 Been there too. I was lucky to have a great manager and I told her about what I was going through and that I felt I needed to go on leave. I believe I was at my job around 7-8 months at that point. Definitely don't let the timing hold you back - do what you need to do regardless of how long you've been there. No one will think of that aspect besides you. And if you have good people on your team, they will want you to do what's best for you, not the company.

Sending love and strength 💞

OP - I am just going through a similar phase for the last several months. It got so bad these last couple of weeks that I am going on extended PTO. Literally called my partner and told her I have health issues which require me to go on PTO. If I was told no, I would have gotten a note from my therapist and made it a medical leave. Please consider doing one of these and taking some time off.

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