I want to leave now. I feel like this depression and anxiety become a trauma that affects me personally and professionally. My former and trusted colleagues who left earlier try to talk me to push myself further and leave after the bonus but i feel like a battle every day and every minute is so long and slow to pass by. Things that used to be easy and inspiring become difficult and suffering. Is anyone in the same position? How do you push yourself? Or should i just stop pushing and just leave.

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Feeling the same exact way…panic attack every time I hear the Teams notification and feel like everyone on the team hates me…it’s suffocating and I don’t know how much longer I can deal with this…you’re not alone feel free to dm my friend…but like everyone else said I recommend taking PTO or LOA to take a mental break

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Stop pushing and finding a new job!! When you get a new job, you can ask for a signing bonus Bc you’re losing the bonus

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And find a new job apologies for the typo

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I’m with you… in the same boat… stranded… don’t know how to swim to shore

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I decided last night that I'm going to leave firm life behind. Started applying to everything in-house I could find that wouldn't require me to move (one good thing that came from the pandemic is that a LOT of companies are advertising permanent remote positions). I just can't keep doing this.

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Me too. Currently on LOA. Diagnosed with GAD and some depression as well. I'm a high performer & consulting is defi not a good fit for me

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Yep.

Working on getting an LOA in place but I'm also literally trying to buy a house and need all le $ to minimally stay as is to not rock that boat.

My CC has also been a complete godsend. Once I finally told her about everything from my diagnosis to sketchy projects, my new goals to things going on with my Dad (early summer) she's ran interference on nonsense and I've positioned into more steady work with a client that likes me and my work a lot.

I hate every single moment of my day but things are ~20% more bearable and that's enough until I can close on this house and get the LOA rolling.

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OP I think I’m here right now as well. I’d do anything to be able to quit right this minute. I just had an agonizingly long panic attack and just this strong urge to either break things or don’t uncontrollably or both.

My mom said I should take 5 and she would help me cover my missed pay but that makes me feel horrible.

How has your week been, are you financially able to take 5?

I don’t want to be disingenuous with a “hang in there” bc I think I would flip if someone said that to me right now as if I haven’t been hanging by a thread for months

I’m sorry you’re going through this as well

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Take a few days off to collect yourself, and take an LOA asap.

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Fyi, also in the same boat and planning to do what I said. You’re not alone OP. We are all here.

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Also in terms of where to start:
1- Will DM you some resources / news letters
2- Use FB to get employee recs / referrals
3- LinkedIn is your friend!!

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You are not alone. Here to support — DM if you need.

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