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I’m so behind in all of my work and everything is a mess in my personal life and I want to die. I can’t get myself out of this ball on my couch where I’m shaking to even start getting my work done.

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Hey. Trust me your life is worth more than your work. You are stronger than this. If you are getting suicidal thoughts, I am happy to chat. Or if you want tot talk to a friend, I’d strongly encourage that.

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I know the feeling, OP. It truly sucks. But, please remember, there's sunlight at the end of darkness.
Is there any one thing that you can start with? Even if it's blocking your calendar for an hour and catching up on your emails? Or make a list with important to-do's?
Please start small and you'll see the difference.
Also, everyone's managers hate them haha. I say that jokingly but I absolutely know how you feel. Point being, you can't make other people like you. So instead focus on getting yourself to like you. Sending strength your way!

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By the way, I just also say it’s really nice to share how you are feeling with others. I think acknowledging and sharing your feelings is a very good start to addressing the core issue

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Agreed! I wanted to say that too. OP, it's very brave of you to want to share this with us. That indeed is the first step. You know you want to feel better. Just take the day off as suggested by someone else and trust me you'll feel amazing! I was so close to doing something crazy this summer and it's crazy that a couple days off brought me back on track

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Just do something- anything. Don’t worry about what’s most urgent - pick something small. And when you’re done with that move to the next small thing. You have survived it so far!!

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Take a personal day and schedule a week off or LOA ASAP. I have felt like this before and after taking time off it is amazing how people move on and forget all of the various things that happened. Sometimes reading about people’s life struggles also help me get perspective, work is pretty unimportant in the scheme of things. I’m working now on dialing back, setting lower expectations etc. Also it feels good to build up 6-12 months emergency fund and know you can leave anyway if you need to.

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Gotcha, thanks for the explanation. This really resonates because I feel like I always have to go to the N-th degree and overcompensate in fear of being found out as a fraud or being “not good enough”.

I made it through most of the day but didn’t get anything accomplished. I really don’t want to live because I feel like I have nothing to live for or goals anymore. I’m lazy and a screw up and I’m a miserable person to be around. I can’t just take a week off because it would really screw my entire team over. The only logical option in my head that can get me out of this is just being dead.

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I DM’d you. You should talk to your manager and call in sick for a few days. Trust me no job is important than your own well being

My managers hate me and I don’t know what else to do I’m so numb right now I want to just be done with life

Im in the exact same state that youve mentioned. So there- atleast you are not alone.

What i did now is made a task list and started with the quickest task. Already feeling a little lighter. Long way to go but trust me that the first step is hardest - you'll get all your tasks done bit by bit.

And im sure you must have felt this same anxiety earlier too. This too shall pass.

You're loved and important. Your life is so precious. I've had these thoughts too and trust me life gets better if you talk to someone. Talk to people offering you to DM, call a close friend or anyone you are comfortable with or/and call the suicide prevention hotline at 1-800-273-8255

Maybe consulting is not the right job for you of your mental and body reaction is this way.

DM me if you need a friend to offload to! I know everything feels like hell right now so just want you to know you aren’t alone

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