I’m starting to think maybe I’m actually bipolar. Rather than only suffering with anxiety and depressions. Anyone experience this?

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I do but I feel that my maniac episodes aren’t that strong.
I definitely noticed that I am never “average” or “okay”. Things are either great or they suck. I’m either crying and thinking of death or smelling the air after the rain and dancing to my Spotify in the street. I have no in between. I have no mild setting.

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This is me. In every aspect of my life. Work. Social. Family.

I’m either super eager and involved as a high performer. Or want to burn the place down (work)

I’m either the life of the party. Or I hate people and everyone is an idiot (social)

I’m either homesick. Or my family is the root of all my issues and I need space (family)

I was actually vote life of the party in high school and I hated everyone. I was in the top 10% of my associate class and couldn’t stand going to work. I’ve been told I’m what keeps my family together and I can barely stand them some days....

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🙋‍♂️I have bipolar II ask me anything

I have BP1 and the manic episodes can get out of control to the point that I don’t even know who I am coming out of it. I lose all filters unknowingly so I end up making people angry at work and out of work. It damages relationships. Emotions run extremely high and fluctuate like crazy. I sometimes hear sounds that aren’t there (hallucinations) and paranoia gets ahold of me. Those were my more severe ones. Being BP1, I tend to run more manic than depressed and it happens with various triggers usually linked to tons of stress and lack of sleep.

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