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Im worried I’ll have crippling anxiety forever. I second guess everything I say / do at work and procrastinate starting projects out of fear I’ll do something wrong. What has anyone done to help with this? I’m on my 9th step in al-Anon and 8th step in OA.

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SSRIs! They work wonders, and therapy helps, too.

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See a psychiatrist, meds can change your life.

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Your first sentence is like “Anxiety Inception”; you have anxiety about having anxiety.

Cut yourself some slack until you’re through all the steps, and even then, it takes some time to get comfortable with the recovery tools to manage anxiety and depression.

All 12-Step programs are “one day at a time”...try to stay focused in today. Or this hour. Or heck, just this exact moment.

Of course meditation, breathing exercises, and journaling help too.

Remember that in recovery we are breaking free from our bondage; the bondage of our obsessive thinking, our perfectionism, our people pleasing, and our self-pity. Break your work up into little morsels. Recognize the “Codependency Tendency” not just in your personal relationships, but also in your work relationships. Schedule time to detach and breathe. Literally set a reminder on your phone to breathe. Sometimes I like to set a Reminder on my Apple Watch that appears on the home face that says, “Be Here Now!”

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I find that even short stints of mediation in the morning help my anxiety if I practice regularly. I’ve been using the Headspace app, 20 mins a day. Am noticeably less anxious than I was before. Worth a try?

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Do you mean meditation?

OP, I think you mentioned something about treatment-resistant depression but I’m not seeing the comment now. At any rate, if I were you, I’d look into some alternative therapies. Some examples are EMDR, electroshock, or supervised and licensed ketamine and/or psilocybin treatment, though you might not be interested in those last two depending on your other substance recovery.

I did inpatient alcohol rehab at a place that also did subconscious affirmation treatment. It worked wonders for my anxiety.

Thanks everyone! I have treatment resistant depression so medicine doesn’t work on me. Have done EMDR, group therapy, behavioral therapy. Will look into the other recommendations!

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