Just wanted to post an update. 68 weeks ago I posted about my drinking problems. It was bad. It’s been 8 months now without a single drink. I still can’t believe it. I still miss drinking. I’ve sat with coworkers and watched them drink. It’s not nearly as fun, but I am so thankful each morning I can hold my head up high. Will I drink again? I only said I would quit for 60 days. Can I have a beer? Some wine? A fine bourbon? I sometimes crave it. I guess there is the answer! You can all do this!

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I miss drinking too. Sometimes. Then I remember that I have a disease that tricks me into believing I don’t have a disease. A disease that tells me I can drink like a normal person. I have been in and out of periods of sobriety for 20 years. I went back out after 2 years, I went back out after 7 years…. Every time I go out, the frequency of my drinking and the volume of my drinking goes up significantly more than when I was drinking before. Despite my relapses, I am alive today because of the periods of sobriety I have strung together.

The last time I went out I went to bed every night wasted swearing I wouldn’t drink again, only to do it again the next day. When I say every night; I mean ever night for months in a row. Alcohol is cunning baffling and powerful.

Today I picked up another 24 hours, and God willing I will pick up another 24 tomorrow.

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🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾😊😊😊

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Amazing! Congrats on your 8 months. It must feel amazing. How’s it helped your overall health?

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Thanks. It’s really noticeable in some ways. I don’t get nearly as angry or short tempered. I feel a little sharper with work. My back pain is way better. My resting heart rate is down like 20%. I’m hoping that I can continue to see more results in my memory recall and sharpness. I figure after 8 months most of it has already happened.

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If you give in to the urge, it may just start creeping up more and more. I say just keep the streak going, congrats!

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Great job! Congrats on 8 months. Before you know it you’ll be at a year!

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Congratulations my fellow friend on this journey called recovery!!! I only pray you find someone you working with that doesn’t drink. You’re definitely putting your recovery in jeopardy sitting with co-workers who drinks. I pray in the future you get a sponsor and run these situations by him or her it’s much easier for them to pull you across that line . I have 30 years and still not willing to take those kind of chances. The disease of addiction is baffling, cunning, and it will kill you. Some people are not worth having in your life!!! Get new friends 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾😍😍😍

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Congratulations!!! I say, don’t let the things you’ve earned in sobriety make you throw it all away. Sometimes because I’ve become so happy in sobriety I think to myself that I’m finally calm and functional and that means I can have a drink now. But then I remember that I’m only calm and functional bc I’m not drinking. Do what you want, it’s your journey. But I say do the work, cherish being present and be kind to yourself with brutal honestly. The bad times will feel more raw, but the good times will feel so much better. Good luck, were here for you and we get the mental confusion of it all

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