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My mat leave ends next month and I am absolutely dreading it. I’m fortunate that my baby is easy going and sleeping well so my time with her has been great. I’ve been getting bad anxiety thinking about returning to work. I’ve seen women post about how they couldn’t wait to go back to work so I feel strange that I’m not like that. Anyone else been through this?

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Don’t feel strange everyone is different and can feel both those things at once. I was excited anxious and sad all at once. Don’t analyze the comparison between you and other moms too much. You will do great when the time comes !

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Mine ends next month as well and I had so much anxiety about returning! But I just got a new offer and as soon as I accepted the new offer the anxiety went away. I think anxiety was related to PwC and not actually returning to work because I’m excited about the new opportunity.

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I feel like this too but think it’s more of being familiar with PwC. I made sure to ask specific questions in my interview like “what if my kids sick? Can I take care of her and work?” To see how that would be dealt with. I am 99% sure that my new company is going to be a better fit but I’ll have that 1% that’s questioning still until I actually start. If that makes sense?

Returned from maternity leave in January. I found that my anxiety about it was so much worse than the reality. It might have been everyone telling me to “enjoy every second!!” but the countdown of how much time I had left was brutal. While I wasn’t looking forward to returning, there was some relief in the countdown being over and just getting on with our new routine.

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A lot of my anxiety about returning was that I let imposter syndrome kick in while I was out. I’ve noticed this happens to myself every time I’m out of the office for a bit. Being away from the work makes me think I’m not competent at it anymore (and never was and when I return, everyone will realize it!). Of course that’s nonsense. And when I get back in the swing, everything feels great again. I’m not saying this is you. Return from leave anxiety can have so many bases (childcare stress, not wanting to leave your smoosh baby, generally questioning whether the work is worth it compared to what you’ve been doing on leave—-all real and valid sources of anxiety). I’m just throwing it out there in case this is part of it for you too. Just know you’ll find your groove again!

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I had horrible anxiety going back after my first. With my next two kids I couldn’t wait. With that said, I didn’t realize it at the time but I had severe PPA with my first. It was debilitating and I just didn’t recognize it at the time. I wish I could go back in time and tell my younger self that it’s going to be okay and medication is ok. I suffered for too long unnecessarily.

I’m not saying you have PPA, but just sharing my own personal experience in case it helps anyone.

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Agree with what others have said. The dread and unknown of how things will work was much worse than the actual going back. Also, at least in my experience, most people were pretty patient as I ramped back up or if the baby had a bad nights sleep. I just returned from my second leave and I will say I was slightly more excited to go back to work - being at home more during COVID was mentally taxing and clients are easier to negotiate with than my 2 year old 🙄

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Wow this sounds like it could have come word for word out of my mouth! I am in the exact same exact boat

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Don't feel strange! I know more women who dreaded returning to work than were excited. I was seriously depressed about it and tried hard to find a new position. Unfortunately, it didn't work out for me and I'm still stuck here, but maybe you'll have better luck!

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Once you start back everything will click into place. It’s just the idea of going back that is stressful.

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I agree with this. I’m two weeks out from returning from my second kid and stressing about it. Coming back after my first was easy, but I totally counted down the days ahead of time and stressed about it, too.

I was on the other side of the fence (I really wanted to go back to work) and I felt that I was the exception. Guess to say, we are all different. However you feel about this it's valid.

Yea going back to works sucks. It really does. Where I legit contemplated being a stay at home mom. But give yourself some grace and take solace in the fact that we all do it. It took me awhile for the anxiety to subside.

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