On a break after 10 yrs together, most recently 7 yrs of intercontinental long distance. I’m not sure what to do anymore. I just want to sink into the earth but I’m making myself go for a walk instead

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Hey - I’m not sure what a good advice would be or if you’re even looking for it, but I wanted to at least post to say I’m proud of you for going for a walk instead.

I know being proud of someone can connote some sort of ownership/stake in the situation at hand and as strangers I don’t quite have that. Except I’ve been there and I’m often there, and knowing someone else struggling made a choice to go for a walk even when wanting to sink into the earth helps me too.

I’m rambling. Hang in there OP. Thank you.

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Not sure what advice I could give you either, but I second C1 wholeheartedly.

One step after the other, my friend. You can get through this.

Remember - if things ever seem like they’re getting to be too much to bear, there is no shame in seeking professional help. Feel free to DM if you want to unload or discuss further

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Thanks all for the support. I think over the years I’ve recognized that the best thing to do at times like this is to let myself spend as little time as possible alone with a bottle, and that often the times I feel the worst are the times I need to show up at my best. It’s tough — I had what would have been an otherwise fantastic weekend but it only takes the slightest trigger to pull me back down — but I know it’ll get better eventually.

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Thanks for sharing, OP!

A similar thing would happen to me - the slightest trigger could send me into a massive depressive spiral.

When those triggers occur, consider taking the time to remind yourself of the good - write down the things that made your weekend fantastic along with some of the other things you’re grateful for and write about things that bring you happiness. This exercise helped to remind me that everything wasn’t always as terrible as my brain was convincing me things were.

Not trying to prescribe here - just wanted to share something that helped me in hopes it may help you too. Best of luck, my friend

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