Relapsing really bad, scared I’m going to die this time and leave my two young children without a mother. I’m really out of control and need serious help

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Do you have an AA community? There is a raft of people to help hold you up while you get your head above water. I am new to the program and am amazed at the support.

Here is an app to find meetings around you:

https://apps.apple.com/us/app/meeting-guide/id1042822181

Rooting for you! The first step is acknowledging the issue so you are there!

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This could have been me 4 months ago.

I am in a much better spot now. I got a psychiatrist referral from my PCP who signed my paperwork for a paid medical leave of absence and got me enrolled in an intensive outpatient therapy program that meets virtually 10 hours a week.

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Do you have a sponsor? Call an outpatient clinic and make an appt. Or detox.

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If it is THAT serious -- suicidal thoughts etc-- do NOT hesitate to check out your closest mental health services. A stay in a hospital or in-patient treatment may save your life. This disease is no joke. I have lost people to addiction and suicide. YOU and all you loved ones do not deserve that fate. Do whatever it takes to save yourself!!!

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