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Self esteem and lack of confidence has been a major issue for me since childhood. Hampered my initial career growth, rendered me useless in being able to pursue dating/relationships with women, left me open to bullying, triggered major anxiety/ depression. Career wise, I have come a long way to say the least. Relationship/dating wise, things are getting better but my past always comes back to haunt me. And when it does, it pins me down. almost 35 y/o yet, not as far ahead in my career and CONTD.

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I can relate. I have childhood trauma that influenced a lot of my decisions (I’d do risky behavior and got into poor friendships that destroyed my life, health and work because I feared to be alone). What helped was seeing a psychotherapist and digging up my repressed emotions and past. I go three times a week which may be excessive but it’s led me feeling confident, happy and like I have agency over my life.

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Yeah, all of the sAme. I went to therapy after my last relationship ended because I date crappy people and repeat the behavior by falling for another person similar to “my type” or repeat dating my past exs who will always be unavailable. Weird issues with work too, nothing outright but more interpersonal stuff. Decided to chill while in quarantine, joined codependents anon, quit drinking, and started going to therapy using DBT and CBT. Feeling a bit better.

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Still single. Yet to ever be in a serious relationship. One time I thought I was getting into one but got cheated on within a couple of months.

Can anyone relate to my rant? And has anyone been able to successfully overcome a similar situation as this?

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