Told my boyfriend I was feeling suicidal and he basically didn’t care. I know the obvious solution is to break up but he’s all I have and I can’t bear the idea of being even more alone

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You are not alone. Talk to us for starters: why are you feeling this way?

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I wish I could explain it succinctly. Essentially just a lot of awful thoughts and feelings that overwhelm me and make me want to do anything to escape.

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Have you told your boyfriend that you need his support right now? Is this a regular feeling you have, that he doesn't care? If he's outwardly not caring, you really are better off without that :/ Or do you live with him and leaving him would mean finding somewhere else to live? Do you maybe have family or friends nearby who you could stay with for a bit? I'm really sorry you're feeling like this, OP. I promise, this current suicidal feeling will pass soon. Are you working through these feelings with a therapist? I hope you're okay.

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We don’t live together so that’s not the issue. It’s more that I already feel like he’s the only person I can go to, and if I lose him I don’t know how I could make it.

I’ve been working with a therapist and on meds but neither have been helping much.

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