Turbulence hit the plane I was on Sunday and part of me just wanted it to go down, so I could be done with all of this.

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Thanks y’all.
It’s just been a shit few weeks. I think I’m fine.
For the record, I did go and speak to my psychologist. But just can’t shake the feeling and can’t get in to my work.

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I don’t mean to be insensitive here (I’ve had the thought too). If you want a Kobe like memorial, then turn the switch, put positivity in your control, and then when you go out, however you go out, people will remember your impact. You’re smart—you’re working at a Big 4.. you’re in the top 1-2% of the world (the world has ~9B people).. you’re better off than 8.99B people!! If the environment has you down, you have two options: 1- change the environment or 2- change how you deal with the environment. Hope that was motivational a tad.

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Every time I commute downtown I think about what it would be like jumping in front of the train. Passive ideation I suppose. Either way, if anyone here needs to talk to someone, shoot me a message.

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I thought this was normal.. I’m always thinking a freak accident would end the pain. That doesn’t make me suicidal

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Agree it doesn’t make you suicidal but it’s not normal. It’s a sign of depression. If not managed it will become an issue. It’s important to seek help to understand the reason for the thoughts.

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Hey OP. Sorry to hear you’re feeling this way. I totally understand why you’d have that sentiment...I get there sometimes too. Feel free to DM if you want to chat, happy to listen. *sending you virtual hugs*

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Want to chat, OP?

I know that feel, it’s fleeting but you should get your head out of the clouds (pun intended), it’s not healthy thinking.

DM me if you wanna chat.

Let’s talk. Please reach out.

Are you guys jumping in to help so you can ask for a referral later? Call me a cynic.

OP please talk to your therapist.

Absolutely not.

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I’ve been there. I think, “let’s get this over with”...

OP - is it strictly work that is bothering you or personal issues too?

Same same! DFW-SEA!

Hey I'm from SEA too 😁

OP - sorry to hear you’re going through this and I’m really glad you were able to speak to someone. Here if you’d like to talk through anything too.

Not to take away from your post but I always appreciate the people here who offer to chat and genuinely care. I know we’re all strangers, but I feel more supported in this bowl sometimes than I do within close friends and family. Thank you all

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