Was 8 months free from casino / gambling and went this weekend because some friends wanted to go. Of course I made some money, but now I’m afraid my subconscious is going to kick back in and tell me I can do it again...

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With drinking I struggled for a long time on why having just one sip of alcohol was a relapse; I wanted a relapse to mean that I blacked out and spiraled out of control.

What I’ve come to realize is that it doesn’t matter how much I drink (or if I win or lose at gambling, etc.); it’s the decision that I either consciously or subconsciously make preceding the action.

Luckily, everything is just one day at a time, which means win or lose yesterday, I get to try to be better today. Nobody’s perfect, and forgive yourself. Consider this, “bullet dodged”.

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But you know that's not true. Your subconscious has lied to you before and will continue to lie. Don't give in. 8 months is a huge win. Don't let one night derail you

Here to talk of you need to vent, support, anything..

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I feel you. My check from the casino just cleared today and I want to go back again. Right now it's my only outlet to socialize, especially as an introvert and I lost so much money gambling I feel like a lost cause and loser. But today I decided not to go back for at least a month. In a month I'll revisit and hopefully the money in my bank will let me push out another month

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You did the right thing by coming here to seek help. Stay honest with yourself and as the person before me said, you know it’s your addiction is talking to you, don’t listen to it.

Do some of the things that helped you get through those 8 months. 💛

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The gambling (or booze or food or drugs) is the symptom. The driver of it is the sober thought or lack thereof. Remember what got you to 8 months and pick up and call someone (or post here) when that inner voice is speaking to you

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