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Maybe, but as a Team lead at a big company with many reports I can tell you that all my different engineers feel this at different times.
I recommend you blur your eyes at the various flavours of the month and focus on problem solving and learning how to learn. This will serve you well with the advent of AI coding tools where the trivia of different frameworks and languages fades away.
It does. You sound very new in your career, so it'd honestly be weird if you weren't feeling this way right now. Take a deep breath. You'll get settled in sooner than you think.
I have a few thoughts about this case.
Mental or physical effort requires the expenditure of nervous energy, the nervous system.
Broadly speaking, there are two options:
Either you make an effort within your mental limits, and then your psyche strengthens, and your results improve.
Or you overwork yourself, which is when you lift your maximum weight at every workout (coding a new challenge for yourself), your nervous system can't handle it, your results decline, your immunity plummets, and you get a cold or a strain. Your body goes into revolt. The fact that you're plagued by unoptimistic thoughts indicates fatigue. You're simply worn out, to put it bluntly. Vacation is still a long way off. You're not doing sports, running, or aerobic exercise. You need to constantly perform at your best. You code at work, participate in meetings, and so on, and then you finish coding in the evening, over lunch—in other words, you're practically constantly working. You need to show what a great worker you are, to rack up the points.
Properly organized work is like an assembly line, and as Jack London described, the psyche gets tired on an assembly line.
You have to push yourself to complete a large task.
And you have to strain yourself.
There are two reasons for this deviation from the normal flow of work.
Either you're given a task you don't yet understand. You complete it, okay, then you're given another task that's different from the previous one. There's no repetition. The range of tasks is too broad. You're unfamiliar with the codebase. You have to figure it out. You don't have time to master it with maximum productivity.
If you repeat the same task several times, maybe 10 times, your productivity will increase and you'll complete it with less stress. You'd feel relieved. You'd have the opportunity to see other commits, see who's doing what, and how it all works.
If you compare it to training at the gym, it turns out that every workday, every week, you lift maximum weight—that is, 1 to 3 bench presses, so to speak.
Another scenario: you have a narrow scope of work.
Accordingly, it's also not good to focus on the same detail. You're given the same type of work.
For example, in accounting, auditors know accountants' work better than accountants.
Because they have to deal with different problems in different areas—services, manufacturing, retail, etc.—and don't have to deal with routine work.
And an accountant, no matter what their skill level, performs a set of operations limited by the scope of the company they work for.
And you have an inferiority complex because you only know a narrow scope of work.
General conclusion: get some fresh air, exercise, and go to the gym. Brace yourself. Rest. This is a sign that you're overworking.
Regarding your colleagues' behavior, you think they seem more self-assured and so on. Well, the world's a stage, and everyone is just an actor. What they're feeling inside is unknown. Perhaps they're experiencing similar feelings.
A lot of people get afflicted by imposter syndrome now and then. To get over it you just have to consciously remind yourself that you know what you're doing, and the people who hired you knew what they were doing. You're not an imposter fooling anyone. Just do a good job and push those thoughts out of your head.
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There’s a little bit of faking it till you make it to get over the feeling. Eventually you start picking up patterns and solving things with that which will made the feeling subside