Confession of a Struggling Fresher

I don’t know where to start, but I just need to let this out somewhere. Maybe someone will understand. Maybe not.
I come from a middle-class family, where education is everything where your worth is measured by how well you do in school and the job you land afterward. I did my part. I completed my graduation, went for a master's in electronics and telecommunications, thinking that would set me apart. I thought that if I kept learning, kept pushing, a good job-

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But here I am, 26 years old, and life feels like it’s slipping through my fingers. I see my peers moving ahead, earning well, settling down, while I’m stuck in this cycle of fluctuating between hope and disappointment. I made some wrong decisions along the way, trusted the wrong advice, maybe even trusted myself too much at times. And now, I’m here broke, exhausted, and filled with anxiety about the future.

I managed to get a job as a penetration tester, something I thought would excite me. But the reality? I earn just 9000 a month. It’s barely enough to survive. Forget savings, forget dreams just getting through each day is a challenge.

The worst part? I don’t have anyone to talk to about this. My family expects me to be strong, to figure things out. Friends? Either they’re too busy or they wouldn’t understand. And me? I feel like I’m in the middle of nowhere, stuck in a phase I never imagined would last this long.

I wish I had something inspiring to say, some way to make sense of all this, but I don’t. I’m just tired. So damn tired.

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