Feeling sad this morning.

Realized that I will never feel the excitement / optimism of a first time pregnancy. My first pregnancy was a messy ectopic pregnancy that never had a chance of viability. I had a positive test yesterday and all I feel is fear (will it be another ectopic, etc). I don’t feel a single drop of excitement or happiness - I was shaking when I saw the positive test. Anyone else relate?

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Yes. I had a traumatic MMC in 2023 after 4 IUIs and a year of fertility treatments. I enjoyed 4 weeks of pregnancy (till week 7-8), had a scare, was reassured, saw and heard baby’s heartbeat numerous times, and at week 9-10, baby hadn’t grown and had no heartbeat. I had to have a D&C bc nothing was happening/passing naturally.
I went through many more fertility treatments and got pregnant (through IUI again) 6 months after that. I was so scared of what happened previously that I didn’t enjoy the first few weeks and was literally shaking and crying each week when I went into my RE to check on the baby. I wish I would have had a therapist to talk through my feelings bc it was so hard to enjoy what was happening.
The happy ending is that I did have my rainbow baby in September last year and everything was fine.
Wishing the best for you and please see a therapist. One MC does not mean you will have another. Good luck to you. Just know you’re not alone and your feelings are normal.

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Thank you. I think any and every feeling for women in this bowl is normal. It’s a long and bumpy road and I wish everyone a positive outcome eventually. 🙏

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Sending love and baby dust for a positive outcome this time.

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Have you gotten your hCG levels tested? Can you go in for an early scan? I was able to get a scan as early as 6weeks because I was seeing a fertility specialist.

This put me at ease. You can also pay out of pocket if you aren’t seeing a specialist

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Yes I’ve had two ultrasounds and saw a heartbeat - still just waiting for the other shoe to drop. Really crippling anxiety given how things have gone in the past, but I appreciate your thoughts 🙏🏻

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