We just had our first failed IVF cycle and I feel completely gutted. Everyone keeps telling me to stay positive but I just want space to grieve. How do you find the strength to try again after a heartbreak like this?

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This isn’t good advice but it’s all I had. (FWIW, I was and stayed angry through most of my fertility treatments and just did what I could do manage through it was therapy, movement, etc.)

I kept going because I already felt like so much time had been wasted prepping for and doing the transfer/ waiting for results (not to mention the testing and the numerous IUIs we tried first.) I believed I would be worse off mentally if I stopped. Both because I would have felt like I wasted more time and also because i knew I’d want to do it less and less as I had a break.

Sending you so much love and hugs. This is the worst club.

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Ugh, I’m so sorry you’re experiencing this. The first failure is a particularly wrenching one- I think because you have no reason to think it will work, but also no reason to think it WON’T work, and then when it doesn’t, it feels extra galling. I’m sorry for your loss- go ahead and feel that grief, if that feels right to you. Don’t let anyone, and I mean ANYONE (family, friends, doctors, etc.) make you feel like you have to handle this a certain way.

It took me three tries to end up with a successful pregnancy, and my little “third time’s the charm” baby is now almost a year old, and tbh this makes those early failures fade a bit in my emotional bank. I still mourn them, but it’s easier to focus on what I do have, now. I will say, it was much easier for me not to tell people what I was going through with IVF- people wanted to be supportive, and ask a lot of questions, and be really attentive to timelines, and when it didn’t work out, it was devastating to have to tell them that ON TOP of having to go through it myself. So I didn’t really share at all, until the time came to announce some proper good news, and even then I was so coltish and anxious about it. Bottom line, everyone else can go screw, they’re not entitled to your feelings or your process or your experience, so feel what you want to feel and talk to your partner and hold on to one another and don’t lose hope. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other foot, keep going to those dr appointments and keep giving yourself the meds, and just wrap that into your day to day life. You can do it! Take your space, take a bunch of deep breaths, and give yourself space and grace. Wishing you so much luck in your next try, and the one after that, if necessary.

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Get therapy if you haven’t already. Honestly - it has helped me immensely through this process. Whatever comes. I got so tired of being sad and a shell of myself and something needed to change.

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I’m so sorry. We put our bodies through so much all for the hope of success, all the while knowing that it’s not a guarantee and that we may end up right back at the start. No matter how much support we may have, it’s us going through all of it. As awful as the outcome here was, I’m sure that going through every step of this process has shown you just how strong you are and just how much you’re willing to do. Give yourself time, but know that the strength you’re looking for is already within you, none of us know just how much perseverance this process takes until we experience it for ourself. Give yourself some time.
Do you have additional frozen embryos?

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