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My alcoholic mind is absolutely amazing at rationalizing and justifying the next drink in light of reality, and it wasn't until I had been sober a while that I was able to look back and see the delusion.
I was what I calll a "weekend warrior" all the way to my last drunk, no problems at work, successful, hit the gym regularly, but when I drank it was on.
I had thoughts about quitting for a couple years before I finally did, and it took the hangovers to get bad enough and ling enough that I could no longer deny that something had to change. I was not going to quit any sooner because the thrill of the drink always spoke louder than the memories of that last hangover.
I've been a sober member of AA for 13 years now, which is amazing considering that I wasn't an alcoholic when I walked through the door.
100 sounds similar to my drinking career. Also with time I’ve been blacking out more often and the problems have started to outweigh the fun.
Yeah I tried to "manage" it with all kinds of tricks and I had a fantasy of what it was to just have one nice drink. The problem was that I didn't enjoy just having one. It was limiting. If I had one I wanted more. And if I had more I couldn't stop. I was powerless over alcohol. But I was still able to manage my life. I just developed increasingly complex schemes to be able to drink in the right places at the right times in the right quantity. Eventually that became exhausting and had social costs. I didn't think I was "that bad" because I still had my job, my house, my spouse, my health - but all of those I started to see were on borrowed time if I didn't do something. People in this forum were very supportive over the course of months to get me to my first meeting where I realized AA is where I really belong and it's been a heck of alot of fun ever since. Joy I didn't know while still drinking.
There's a very happy life waiting for you in sobriety if you want it and work at it. The transition might be bumpy but it's worth it.