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It wouldn’t hurt to try for a few weeks and see if it starts to help matters. Sorry you’re going through all this all at once
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You really do sound depressed. I mean, let’s say you describe the symptoms of depression anyway. Go get some help. Yes, counseling can really help but don’t go into it thinking you’ll be a back seat driver, a passerby, a passive recipient. You have to be active and allow yourself to be super vulnerable. I was in a very, well not so good spot…newly married, we wanted a baby, but for 7 years (counting 2 prior to marriage) we had unprotected sex and for the life of my marriage I was in infertility treatment with 3 miscarriages. My husband at the time would not get counseling or he’d fuck me around and say yes, but ‘forget’ or whatever. I went by myself weekly. I went primarily bc I wasn’t happy when my sisters ( I have 5) got pregnant and started having their own kids or for my friends when they got pregnant. I was sour and bitter and didn’t want to be that way. Long story short, I was really unhappy in my marriage bc I came to realize through therapy that my then husband was probably an active alcoholic and that we were really living more as roommates (which was true). Anyway, therapy changed my life. I divorced my husband about 6 months after stopping therapy. I met a wonderful man quite soon after and we’ve been married almost 34 years. And we have 3 sons. Sometimes I look back and I think my first marriage was another lifetime ago. Wow, life can change on a dime. Within one year my life was totally different. Different man and pregnant.
Be strong by getting help. And, yes you might need medication for awhile, but antidepressants have come a really long way, they’re really quite safe now. If you need them you need them. Sending positive energy and vibes your way ✨
You need help quick. See someone, talk to someone. Seems you are on the verge of doing something to hurt yourself, or others. Also, I am not sure how spiritual you are but I would reach into spirituality. That is all about your spiritual development. The enemy loves idle minds. Seek help my friend.