2.4 years sober. I got into smoking which accelerated. (which I've done off and on my whole adult life). I'm done. For some reason odaat doesn't work for me for smoking. It's almost like the inverse "I can smoke today and quit tomorrow" and there's no pain that comes with it. But I'm done. Not buying more.

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As a lifetime non-smoker (had an errant pack here and there over the years), I smoked a pack a day or more a day as I was first getting sober, then switched to vape, and was probably getting more nicotine at that point. Constantly praying about it and working steps, and at some point, that obsession was lifted as well.

Nicotine is horribly addictive, though I'd do it all over again if that's what it took to get sober. I feel for you.

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Love what you wrote, IBM!

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Good for you. Every step forward comes with its own reward. Keep moving and stick to your guns! Proud a ya!

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