Anyone wants to talk? I'm going through some difficulties and I don't have any friends, any activity to distract myself from boredom and silence.

Since I started psychotherapy my life has become more and more tasteless, and here I am asking to talk with strangers on fishbowl. So feel free to send me a text in case you're feeling lonely too.

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Best wishes!

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We can talk. Exercise is always good.

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I'm happy I've left Switzerland and France, I shouldn't have stayed at all. My bad.

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I’ve never had a good experience with therapy. It’s always made me feel worse. After going through like 10 of them I decided screw it - I’m better off without this in my life.

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I think it's also about the period of life you're living in and the circumstances. In my case right now I just feel as if I need to be left alone, this doesn't apply only to therapists but also with friends and family I'm behaving this way.

So in a moment where my body and mind say stop, I don't want to do anything, I don't want to think, socialize, and become productive right now. Even if I live in poverty and it's risky to behave like this now.

Finally the person I want to meet the least is my therapist. Why? She's a stranger to me, she's going to take notes on what I say and will guess what kind of mental issues, disturbs I'm having atm.
This finally feels wrong right now because I need to feel this way. I need to feel useless, I need to try to figure out on my own what's going on with me, my mind, my heart, my feelings.

I need to understand the current situation: why my mother is left alone even now that I'm back, she seems lonelier compared to when I was abroad. I feel sorry for her, for us.
Could I be supportive of her? But the only thing I could have done to give her some support was to keep the job I had last summer. Are the other members of the family being supportive or are they just worsening things? Because everyone turned to be absent somehow, my mother always managed to do the stuff she does despite the financial problems we always had. My father now comes to the house from time to time, and tries to fix things quickly, he's always in a hurry to leave and get back to his life. Understandable, but I don't feel as if he's very supportive, he doesn't believe I can do things, he actually believes I'm useless and without any future ahead of me. In fact I think that he sucks together with the rest of his family that has always denigrated my mother. Now that he wants to assure more independence to the other siblings, I feel like he's trying to trap me at my mother's. Super unfair his move and I'll plan revenge for that.

You need a better therapist + need to support your own healing outside of therapy. Therapy is not a magic pill but it’s helped me a lot.

It’s uncomfortable, lengthy and painful but even without medication you can invite joy in your life.

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I do agree with what you're saying about the therapist saying dhit that's fucked up. To be honest , I know a lot of psychiatrist that need a psychiatrist. They trouble shoot people's brain giving meds.
Thats why I don't go.
Had 1 psychiatrist tell me im bipolar, he refused my Adhd medication.
I told him if he wants to see someone who's bipolar, I can show him. He then ordered my Ritalin.
Its your body your health. If it doesn't feel right, it may not be right. But anyone can suffer pain, sadness , depression long or short term. Its nice to except people and what they are feeling. Sometimes just having someone to share with that's not judgemental ir always wanting a pill to be the fix!

Hope you're doin a little better now it's a week on mate. Here if ye wanna talk like

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Why don't you get back to your life instead of thinking and trying to know what I do with mine?

Hope you’re ok. How is the therapy going?

I don't like it and I don't like the entire domain I must say. People who do without it in life get better opportunities for their jobs and career in general I think, and those People who go to therapy end up running in circles.

Psychotherapy only works if you're rich cause if you're poor they send you to the psychiatrist and stop you from making your own plans for your life.

It won't help and it will make things worse only.

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