I no longer tell myself I want to be dead. Meds and therapy have helped. But I also seem to not care if I die or get a terminal illness or disease. Like I won’t put myself in danger but if I get a disease or illness I won’t mind either. Does anyone else feel like that? Maybe that’s one reason I don’t bother to get myself in shape.

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I feel this. Im not suicidal nor do I have thoughts about actively or intentionally hurting myself but if something were to happen I find myself thinking “oh well”

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Yes. This is it.

I’m reminded of Esther Perez’s work and the word vitality. What would make you feel more alive?

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Dang autocorrect. It’s Esther Perel.

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