Wrong title up there due to technical issues. But basically a 1st year associate struggled after joining a firm with mainly a capital markets practice. Worked 12-16 hours straight at printer sessions for months and was fired after I struggle with attention to detail and to keep up with a lot of small tasks with no paralegal support, such as to "organise a whole lot of documents send to group chats", "cross checking data with supporting documents" [1/x]

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Sounds like Hong Kong cap markets… it’s not your fault, they are just toxic people…

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wonder whether I should move to the UK to start over again lol. Got a UK law degree (from a good uni), but idk.... Not sure if it's worth pursuing or will it be similar.

"then dealing with minor details in the same prospectus all day", "doing literally the formatting myself" and to chase clients for documents who literally always refuse/ hesitate/ too lazy (or very slow)/ send very disorganized docs (for further info, those docs arw usually scanned and in a not very good way by clients that they usually are not recognisable by OCR or whatoever and the name of the docs are usually a bunch of numbers or just lazily named, which added to the workload). Everyone is expected to sit at the same desk and its literally horrible when people have an Unrelated teleconference next to u and u are expected to continue work (whilst headphones are not allowed or rarely used by people cause people may find u anytime), distracted also by people walking or talking as well as env factors (such as people expected to rely on solely their laptop screens), sometimes env is very hot or cold, meals are ordered centrally and sometimes make me sick (like all of them being cold plates bc of the preference of certain people). Got fired after struggling and the firm even forced me to go for another printer session when im on my notice period. This led me to discover my adhd (my lack of attention to details, sometimes getting bored, easily distracted, poor document organisation skills, overthinking, missing emails or constantly check emails bc of fear of losing emails (bc the firm send all the firm's emails in capital markets to all staff which means I've to sort out emails of three teams), replying to client messages and emails within 30 minutes, longer for research emails, but have to acknowledge receipt, even on weekends and holidays and the unteasonable boss like to ask sudden questions (and when i cant load due to by adhd brain fog or conceive whats he talking abt in a second, he will just say bad things, which affected my confidence, which made him further doubt my ability) or he will test me by engaging with a potential small client alone on a matter ive never handled before and he doesnt like me to ask for help from senior associates and what to see my reaction, then talk abt how inappropriate or wrong my reactions are without saying how to improve (whilst he expect me to answer clients asap) when im busy with other capital markets work too on site). Just not certain where to go from there. Cause my exp. are mainly cap markets and I'm overseas, so cap markets are the most lucridous and its not easy to find a corporate position without it. Just afraid I'll get fired by another firm due to performance issues again. Wondering if i should quit law or what.

(An extra note is I was expected to be 80-100 hours plus per week at printers. Better when I'm doing other work but I've spent 4 printer sessions in 9 months of my tenure and basically I could not function and even during other works, I'm expected to work and reply to messages 24/7 during weekends and holidays. Not sure if there will be any good advice, but felt seriously sad when I could not achieve as much as my peers despite doing good at uni and seriously question my self worth.) [2/2]

[please ignore my previous comment cause this rectified the previous]

"then dealing with minor details in the same prospectus all day", "doing literally the formatting myself" and to chase clients for documents who literally always refuse/ hesitate/ too lazy (or very slow)/ send very disorganized docs (for further info, those docs arw usually scanned and in a not very good way by clients that they usually are not recognisable by OCR or whatoever and the name of the docs are usually a bunch of numbers or just lazily named, which added to the workload), Everyone is expected to sit at the same desk and its literally horrible when people have an Unrelated teleconference next to u and u are expected to continue work (whilst headphones are not allowed or rarely used by people cause people may find u anytime), distracted also by people walking or talking as well as env factors (such as people expected to rely on solely their laptop screens), sometimes env is very hot or cold, meals are ordered centrally and sometimes make me sick (like all of them being cold plates bc of the preference of certain people). constantly check emails bc of fear of losing emails (bc the firm send all the firm's emails in capital markets to all staff which means I've to sort out emails of three teams), replying to client messages and emails within 30 minutes, longer for research emails, but have to acknowledge receipt, even on weekends and holidays and the unteasonable boss like to ask sudden questions (and when i cant load due to by adhd brain fog or conceive whats he talking abt in a second, he will just say bad things, which affected my confidence, which made him further doubt my ability) or he will test me by engaging with a potential small client alone on a matter ive never handled before and he doesnt like me to ask for help from senior associates and what to see my reaction, then talk abt how inappropriate or wrong my reactions are without saying how to improve (whilst he expect me to answer clients asap) when im busy with other capital markets work too on site). Got fired after struggling and the firm even forced me to go for another printer session when im on my notice period. This led me to discover my adhd (my lack of attention to details, sometimes getting bored, easily distracted, poor document organisation skills, overthinking, anxiety. Just not certain where to go from there. Cause my exp. are mainly cap markets and I'm overseas, so cap markets are the most ludicrousand its not easy to find a corporate position without it. Just afraid I'll get fired by another firm due to performance issues again. Wondering if i should quit law or what.

(An extra note is I was expected to be 80-100 hours plus per week at printers. Better when I'm doing other work but I've spent 4 printer sessions [1 month on average for each printer so basically 4 months] in 9 months of my tenure (so basically all time off and weekends gone) and basically I could not function and even during other works, I'm expected to work ad hoc (or scheduled cause the client's demand urgent work that are not urgent but boss want me to meet client expectations) and reply to messages 24/7 everyday and include weekends and holidays. Not sure if there will be any good advice, but felt seriously sad when people seems to be able to do it but I could not achieve as much as my peers despite doing good at uni and seriously question my self worth.) [2/2]

Ive exp before as an intern in another firm that when working in a matter ive never touched upon, the associate keeps claimed that I'm making mistakes despite "those are not law works (despite they are pleadings" and when I say I'll improve next time after learning from my mistakes, he said how can he expect someone to only learn after making mistakes and not get it right for simple stuff that even legal clerks (I bet with some exp) can do? Even comparing me to a part time student who worked there (but the part time student have worked for him for more than 2 years lol and I've zero exp. prior to the internship in that field). Just wonder if everyone at law is that toxic. Wonder whether I should have tried another field but felt desperate when I've wasted so much money doing law school and [in debt to my parents as ive promised to return the money to them]. Just felt very lost and traumatized. Like even when I face a normal boss in a next law job, I feel like I'll still have serious self doubt and confidence issues and will always second guess my judgement and my ability.

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