Broke down and had a panic attack at work today. I can't do this anymore. I'm so burned out. I'm so tired of feeling like a disappointment. I'm so tired of feeling as though my best is still not enough. That it'll never be enough. That I'm not enough.

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I am sorry to hear that. I have had panic attacks in past and they are brutal. If possible, take some time off. When your stress levels go up, your body fights back and leads to these panic attacks. In my experience, one needs considerable time off to bring the stress levels down and I know that is not possible for everyone.

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I wish you all the best as well. I just bought my first house and I just want to make sure I'm doing everything right. So of course, I can't afford to quit this job, or else I'll be at risk of losing my home. It really does feel like I'm stuck.

Listen pal, and I don't mean to go making things worse, but you need to hear this. Nervous breakdowns are like heart attack or stroke, once you've had one, you are now setting yourself up for having them again. I had two (that I'm certian of), and I know they aren't fun.

I DO NOT mean to scare you worse but I'm speaking purely from personal experience here. So you need to take this seriously!

The first things that you need to do are:
1. Take a weeks sick leave if you can. Vacation time if you absolutely need to. (In this case time is time, so don't worry about the semantics of it.)
2. Go and see your regular doctor ASAP. (You need to tell them what's going on.)
3. Get a recommendation for a therapist or a psychologist from your regular doctor. (They may sound like they are the same thing, but medically speaking they aren't. What it comes down to is a psychologist can write prescriptions where a therapist can't, but that's not the important part here. Getting supportive help is.)
4. Once you get the recommendation. Make and keep the damned appointment!!. (Forget any level of preconceptions you had last week about mental health being a gimmick or a joke. It's about as real as it can get.)
5. Remeber that this is a marathon, this isn't a one time fix. So be prepared for atleast a dozen sessions. If nothing else the doctor will need half of that time to get a clear picture of what's going on inside.
6. Remember, remember, remember this.!.! YOU, ARE, NOT, ALONE, IN, THIS!!!, even though your body and mind are telling you the polar opposite with this you're not.


Now at every step along the way remember one big thing, BE HONEST. An be honest with both them and yourself. Be open. The only person you should be vague with is your employer, all you need to tell them is "you have some time off to tend to some personal business thats recently came up", and that's it, unless it comes backed up with a doctor's report.

You ARE going to feel like you're babbling at first, but that's perfectly normal. Just trying to keep your focus on whatever was going on when you slipped up. Tangents are going to happen so don't worry about it.

Now if you can't find a doctor in your area because of insurance or availability. I strongly recommend the company ... BETTER HELP ..., you can find them online. I've been using them the past several years. I can truthfully say the two (one retired) therapists I've been working with have changed the course of my life in the past 15 years. (I hope doesn't take you or anyone else that long, but Covid got mixed in there)

Please feel free to DM me if you just need somebody to listen. You're not alone in this thing.

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Thank you for the insight. I currently have a therapist through Grow Therapy who has been amazing to work with for the last several years and she's already recommended I take the rest of the week off. Which I am doing.

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