I have a gaslighting narcissistic mother. I’ve recently realized she’s not who she used to be and will never return to the mother I once knew. In other words I hate her. This hate has turned into an obsession, occupying long conversations with my husband and close friends, and beginning to leech into other social conversations. It’s embarrassing. I feel like I’m revealing my dirty laundry but I also can’t hold it all in. Am I the only one? If not, what have you done to cope? I’ve tried therapy

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I strongly recommend long term, consistent therapy with an excellent therapist

It is okay to vent, but unless you vent to the correct outlets you’ll face other issues such as now. Also, you need to be able to think constructively of your problems even the ones that stem from trauma. Therapy is a process, you need to trust it, work on it and let it work on you. If you put in the right work, you might even come to terms with who your mother is.

Good luck on your journey to heal.

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Hated my mom (and dad) my entire life but got over it in my mid to late 20s (I’m 33 now). I’m ambivalent now. Therapy is the answer.

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Sounds like I need to try a different therapist. Thanks y’all, wish me luck

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What methods did your therapist use?

Internal family systems is the most effective. Started it about a year ago. Trauma therapy got the ball rolling but left me super stuck.

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If you’ve tried therapy before and now you’re wondering how to cope have you considered going back to therapy and if not what else do YOU think would help?

I am currently in therapy and have been for some time. The anger has only increased. I’ve tried self help, researching and reading books, coaching, therapy. I am most definitely putting in the work. But it’s just making me see through her stunts and insecurity more clearly

It’s the 5 stages of grief then, I would assume. You’re starting to really see her for what she is, you’re feeling let down and disappointed. First step would be anger then. I had that as well. All consuming rage. Your therapist has to help you move through to the next stages.

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