I almost self harmed but stopped by grabbing something strong and drinking it straight. I've calmed down a little but this is the first time I turned to alcohol to cope. As long as I don't mix it with pills it's ok right.... I'm deep in self hate & shame now.

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Hey. Stay strong. Whatever you are going through, remember that it is temporary.

Is there someone in your life that you can reach out to and just talk? Do you already see a therapist or psychiatrist? Mine recommended that I have a plan whenever I have suicidal thoughts, such as choosing a person to hold me accountable and watching my favorite TV show.

Try an app called Wysa. It's an AI bot that chats with you using therapy-based techniques. I've used Wysa for the worst of times!

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The last time I almost took a knife to my leg to self-harm I booked a flight to a large city by myself and stayed there alone for a month just walking around and doing my own thing. Not sure if that’s possible with your job, but it was enough for me to get to a better place and a year later I haven’t had that desire to hurt myself.

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*hugs op*

*sends hug* hang in there OP. What can you do to take your mind off it, anyone you can talk to or anywhere you can go?

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