Between comp emails yesterday and a call from a SM just now who said “if you’re out living your life I can call you Monday” to which I responded I’m def not... I just realized (cont.)

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My entire identity is work.

My personal self worth is based almost entirely on how much my coworkers like me, how my clients perceive me and how my firm demonstrates my value. And I’m a good worker! But that’s like, my whole life.

I cried when I didn’t get an early promo (which was a long shot anyways), I’ve been so disappointed with a 6% salary increase yesterday - even though I’m probably at the top of my pay band. Sometimes I even get upset and feel neglected when I don’t hear from certain coworkers for a few days at a time.

God what’s wrong with me!! Can therapy fix this? Or do I just need friends? I’ve always been this way, even before consulting. I’ve always prided myself on being a great worker. Never GREAT at school. Not gorgeous. Not great at sports. But always been reliable, smart in the work force, fast learner, high performer, good teacher. But that’s it.

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OP- therapy really helps. I’m type A, good worker, wrapped up in work, and typically good at processing my own feelings. Found a therapist after grandmother passed away and I couldn’t stop crying...for days, any small trigger would do it. Therapist has been amazing. And helping in all parts of life. It took me a few days of searching online to find a shortlist of 4 therapists to reach out to, and another 2 months to actually book my first appointment. Been going for just over a year now.

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OP happy to chat! send a DM. struggling through this as well but learning to live life outside of work to have a balanced perspective.

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