I left my last job because I didn't appreciate the culture (B4). However, it was probably because I was a terrible employee. However, I do find that my clients love me 10x more than my consulting colleagues. I joined a smaller firm to cover up the problem.
I drink during the day. I know it's the main reason for my ability to be a productive employee. Anyone else deal with this? I'm trying to control it through moderation management, Dharma meetings, therapy, and white knuckling.
This too shall pass.
Meeting makers make it. I hear all too often of people with similar sobriety going back out. And the results are not pretty. Dude I know had about the same amount of time ended up wrapping his car around a tree and getting his name splashed in the local police blotter. Don't drink, go to meetings.
Keyword "unmanageable". Just because we put the plug in the jug doesn't mean life is going to be a bed of roses forever. I have found I can apply the steps to any situation just substitute the situation with alcohol in step 1.
To each his own, there are many paths to sobriety — however, this behavior/attitude sounds typical for many AA-ers who have around this time. We call it the 7 year itch— where we hit our stride, life is good, the obsession has lifted, we feel like we’re not getting anything from the program anymore, etc. One suggestion, try to stay connected to at least one meeting a week—just to give back what was given to you. Be there for the newcomer who may be just like you, who needs to identify and see the hope. And selfishly, it also provides a safety net just in case things start to turn.
Maybe now you do. But as everyone is saying, this too shall pass and not to a better place. This was my experience. Eventually I started out on a dry drunk and then I started to white knuckle it. After five years of pure rage I had had enough and decided it was time to return to meetings.
I don't just go to meetings to feel fine, though it's a big part of it. I also go to give back. So many people gave their time to me in the beginning, I want to pay it forward.
I also want to say, OP, that I don't think not going to meetings means you'll drink again. I only know that narrative because the people who stop meetings and drink and ruin their lives again, or who don't drink but become miserable bastards come to meetings and share their stories. Those who stop meetings and are fine don't come back to AA to say, "I haven't been to meetings and I'm fine!" So if you cut meetings , who knows? But you can always come back.
As will all things
I know the meetings will be there for me when I’m ready. Presently I’m working a lot on my health and some debilitating injuries and other outside issues that are unmanageable for me.