Hello everyone. I just discovered fishbowl a few minutes ago and so I am new here. I work from home full time and am also a full time Mom as well to two amazing little boys, ages 5 and 7, one of whom has been declared academically gifted (my 7 year old), and I'm a proud fiancee to their Father. However, I am currently battling depression yet again and I feel guilty for even having any kind of mental/emotional instability in the first place. I feel ashamed about it and I don't what to do...smh

Hey sweet ladies, C (26 male) this side. Hope you are keeping safe and healthy!

About me? People usually say I am their go to person for when they need emotional support, advise about relationships and when they feel low, maybe because I help them cheer up again and be the ear they need.

I am a great listener too. I can go on listening to you if you feel low, won't say a word until you are finished, will hold your hand when you are done and try to bring your sweet smile back!
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So I don’t get it. I checked stats at a fertility clinic and they look decent on fertility iq. I looked at the art stats and it appears that the stats are low -like 20 percent success rate?!

Anyone here diagnosed with gum disease (periodontitis)?? What’re you doing to improve your gum & general oral health? Any recs for toothpaste / mouth wash? Thank you!

How are 1st year litigation associates dealing with WFH? I’ve been having terrible anxiety/panic attacks, and pretty sure my billables wont exceed 110 for April. I’ve been super stressed about it and don’t know how to move on to May with the proper mindset to make up for as much time missed as possible. CA courts are still closed, and I’m worried I won’t be able to exceed (or even meet) my May goal after April.

QBurst is hiring data scientists with 3- 6 YOE. Deep Learning, TensorFlow, PyTorch, ScikitLearn, NLP preferred. WLB is awesome, appraisals happen twice a year and permanent wfh option is there.
DM me for referral. Happy to help :)

Anyone else have trouble hitting their calorie goals in the winter because it’s just too cold outside to go get groceries/lunch/dinner? 😩

Would you recommend the CVS test? I dont think I want to get it done due to the risks.

Can anyone recommend a good book/materials to prep for the CIPP/CIPM? 🙏🏽

How do I deal with a parent who has become bitter and shrewd as they age? It’s exhausting and disheartening to be around because they used to be positive and happy. I’d like to help them be positive again but also want to give them space to feel how they feel. I just want them old version of my parent back 😞

I have seen my parents fight every since I was 8 and I’m 27 now and nothing has changed. I discovered at 17 that my dad is gay who had multiple relationships with other men. We were devastated but....

It’s been 3 years since I (27F) moved to Seattle and still don’t have a solid social circle. Not necessarily a big group… I’m talking 3-4 friends who are easy going and not flakey/ hard to make plans with.

Idk if it’s due to Covid, Seattle freeze, a combination of the two or other factors. Any transplants out there who are NOT the outdoorsy type and feel the same? And if so, how did you get past it?

Hi Guys,
I have offer from HTC global service.
Can you please help me about hows Job security and WLB HTC.
Also they are offering me permanent remote work.@

Does PayTM(Payment gateway team) allow permanent wfh?

Sadly this is where I ended up (going through divorce with 6mo infant). Abusive spouse wants shared custody when he doesn’t know a thing about taking care of an infant.. any advice would help re custody or divorce as well. We are not in speaking terms

Truth be told I have never been through onboarding via remote. It’s a bit of a struggle. It’s taking forever to get access to certain resources and my assigned mentor is always underwater. How is everyone dealing with this? My manager seems hard to please in our first couple 1:1s.

How can I approach my boyfriend who has an alcohol problem to help him get healthier ?

Anyone purchased a timeshare? How does it work and how do you like it?

VML Sr Art Director position assuming 7-10 years experience. What’s a fair salary expectation for the Midwest? Chicago/Kansas City area.

Seiko SPB143J1 vs. Monta Ocean King for everyday beater? (Photos included)

Has anyone heard of "to the new" company in noida.
Hows the company as brand wise. Will switching from a well known company to a less known company be a downgrade from career growth perspective(less number of calls in next switch) ?

I am mainframe developer and having 8+ years of experience. I am planning to learn latest technology and few of them suggested to learn Oracle CPQ or Commerce cloud.

Is oracle CPQ or commerce cloud are good for the future of the career? Please advice.

Lets us discuss why Indian companies expects/forces/ us to work more than 9 hours but in timesheet we have to fill 8.
Managers schedule meeting after office hours and expects us to be available always.

Sorry to say this but I have seen only Indians who work extra hours. What's even funny is that the upper management laugh at foreigners who work exactly 8hours.

Should we not change our mentality?
What should we do to not follow this anymore?

What holiday party did you get?
Anyone living close to an office, got a holiday party with food and drinks, and the venue started open for them until around midnight. Our remote workers got a one hour party w a DJ and trivia that let you win gift cards. Yeah it was nice to win a gift card but I found it lame in comparison to hanging out with my team in real life.

PhDs of Fishbowl, what's the worst thesis premise you've ever encountered?

Been working at my company as a new grad for almost a year, but don’t see myself in the team that I am in (working with Salesforce) for long term. Interested in frontend dev and have been learning on my own. Manager says chase doesnt have much React opportunities. Is it possible to make a switch when I barely have experience? Are there companies that will hire by seeing that I am willing to learn and am interested in frontend even tho I don’t have much experience with it yet?

How am I supposed to deal with priorities changing daily and constantly having new tickets added to an already planned sprint? Is this normal?

someone doesn't give af

Is there any joining bonus to 601 grade joiners in JPMC?

Any info on the agency Heartbeat in NY?

Thoughts on Ogilvy? Anyone have the inside scoop on life as a creative over there?

What is average salary of DevOps MTS( memeber of technical staff) for 2+ yrs experience in SalesForce?

Panic attacks and anxiety for public speaking in front of strangers. Anyone in a simular situation who have tried Toastmasters?

My mood has been fluctuating so much lately. Some days (yesterday) I wake up feeling invincible and some days (today) want to hide myself the rest of the world and feel like nothing will ever get better. I’m trying to push myself to make plans with other ppl and am really self-conscious about it cuz I don’t want ppl to see me in low spirit.. any ideas on how to fix that?

What “self help” books are you guys reading? I just read Untamed by Glennon Doyle and wow, I want to start from the beginning again, but feel like I should read something else. Would love any suggestions.

I have seen my parents fight every since I was 8 and I’m 27 now and nothing has changed. I discovered at 17 that my dad is gay who had multiple relationships with other men. We were devastated but....

Anybody had experience with 10mg Doxepin for sleep issues.

Anyone around who I can vent to?

I am done trying to pretend everything is fine at work. The higher ups on the team kept asking if I’m doing anything fun for the weekend during video calls. I felt the pressure to make something up but I just can’t. I’ve been struggling with depression, loneliness, anxiety with immigration and the fact that I might be out of work soon cuz my visa is expiring. I’m thousands of miles away from my family and I just want everything to stop. But when my manager kept asking in front of everyone am I

Going through a lot of mixed emotions. Almost feels like my anxiety levels are on the rise. I used to think I can manage stress very well, but that belief seems to be fading away. I am diabetic as well and don’t see much point of working hard as I have in all my life so far... and just feel like living alone and going somewhere in the darkness. Anyone else facing similar issues?

How does someone like Elon Musk can go on to do so much while I can barely get out of my bed, keep my job and have the will to live?

Don't get me wrong, I appreciate so much and feel very lucky to have a job BUT I am losing all the energy and excitement regardles of the project. Every day I struggle with going back to this consulting work. I just don't have the energy to focus (this is not the case for other things and side hustles). I manage to keep it down and deliver but I fear it's a matter of time until I fail. Trying to find an exit/job but had 1 interview in 3 months. I feel trapped and guilty for feeling this.

Why does getting let go feel like dying? I was so angry earlier at having gotten the news about being let go after 2 years and now it feels like I’m being crushed from the inside out.

I almost self harmed but stopped by grabbing something strong and drinking it straight. I've calmed down a little but this is the first time I turned to alcohol to cope. As long as I don't mix it with pills it's ok right.... I'm deep in self hate & shame now.

I struggle with perfectionism and anxiety and this job seems to not help. How can I learn to be less of a perfectionist in a job that highly rewards this kind of behavior?

I am starting to question my existence in this world. I have a nice job, decent salary, i work out and eat healthy, maintain my health, read 3 to 4 books every month, dont have any personal commitments (single), in my early 30s and things cant be any better. Of course with the exception that i had a real bad break-up with my fiancé 6 months ago. And i dont have any symptoms of depression, but there are days when i just feel like what is all this for?

Feeling very anxious. I have no idea why or about what. I just feel this lump in the pit of my stomach and a tightness in my chest and worry/fear on my mind. Like something very bad is about to happen

In an industry full of smart and driven people, I find it helpful to remind myself that I need to run my own race.

I can’t anymore I can’t 😭

I have a dog, so I’m committed to sticking around for at least the next 15 years. But wow, living is hard. What’s the point of it all? To work and look forward to the weekends? How do I get out of this rut?

I think it’s over with my SO of 3 years. He tells me he loves me and wants to work things through but has lied to me several times in the past - some which were the same mistake three times. He knows he needs professional help (he’s also on antidepressants and has PTSD) but I don’t know how I can trust him again. Feeling completely broken - cannot believe the situation we’re in. I’m so sad my heart is breaking and I don’t know what to do

Does anyone feel bad seeing friends when you’re job hunting? Just feel like I don’t deserve a dinner out and will feel bad comparing myself since they are all doing fine.