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I am starting to question my existence in this world. I have a nice job, decent salary, i work out and eat healthy, maintain my health, read 3 to 4 books every month, dont have any personal commitments (single), in my early 30s and things cant be any better. Of course with the exception that i had a real bad break-up with my fiancé 6 months ago. And i dont have any symptoms of depression, but there are days when i just feel like what is all this for?

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If you figure it out, let us know! Your question is as old as human thought. I think we are just 'here' - just as every other living organism on countless planets in this universe. There's no Grand Purpose to all of it. Just enjoy it to your best ability! Your ride will end... then that's that.

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AA1 - Yes,this is my philosophy on life. The only true purpose of our existence is to propagate the species same as every lifeform from single cells to humans. Just because we have the ability to reason doesn't make true the the myths and superstitions we make up for what we do not understand.

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I am sorry you are feeling that way. 1. It’s not appropriate to throat punch people who tell you that you should be happy because you have so much going for you, no matter how much you feel they deserve it. 2. The same as above if people tell you to go exercise and you’ll feel better. 3. There are lots of us that feel the same way. After 20+ years of what you’re feeling, I’ve concluded that a key to not feeling that way is connecting with people in a meaningful way; and realizing that external rewards (salary, titles...) aren’t the key to happiness. Good luck and keep talking to people who instinctively get you.

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Yes, its by helping others and forming good connections with others that gets you going.... I am not surprised that you have had similar thoughts for over 20 years.. Eventually we all have to continue doing what we do till one day its all over

There's no inherent purpose to life. At the basic level, humans, like all species, simply reproduce to pass on their genes and die. But luckily, we've evolved into a highly intelligent species that's able to think about questions such as yours. One way to find purpose or meaning to life can be to improve lives, communities, businesses around you with the intention that those that you help will further help others and so on. This is what gives me true satisfaction. Other than that, the world is amazing. See it, have great experiences, love, have lots of fun, and then die.

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Give Mans Search for Meaning a read. It helped me.

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Just ordered - thx for the recommendation.

Suggest finding a good therapist that you can speak with and hopefully sort everything out. I do not know the answer to your question so I do not dwell on it. I just try to do good things and impact people in a good way each and every day. That is how I find peace. Good luck.

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Yes, i have always been putting off trying to talk to a therapist, but think its time. Thanks for your thoughts.

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