I don’t want to stop living a double life. I’m a 29yo bi guy living in a liberal city and I’ve dated a guy(29m) for 5 years. I fly back to my conservative small town and pretend I’m straight for my parents (and extended family) because I don’t want to disappoint them or cause them any pain. I love them and I love my bf, and I want to keep both aspects of my life as they are today. My bf wants to meet my parents but I really don’t want to bring that drama into my life

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Your bf shouldn't be pressuring you to out yourself. You're also not living a double life, you're just showing 2 different, but very true sides of you to different people who are important to you.

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This is a tough decision that I wouldn’t wish on anyone. What does it mean to you to “pretend” you are straight though? Do you act any differently because you are in a romantic relationship with a man? If you happened to be single would you still be leading a “double life,” or are you feeling bad maybe for not telling the truth to your family about the fact that you are with a man? Is this someone that you want to be with romantically for the long-haul or are you unsure about the consequences of being open about your relationship? Sorry for the interrogation haha but it helps in what I would say next

Wow. That’s a tough one. I feel scared to offer what I think 😂. I feel for you man. Not with the same exact thing, but I’ve definitely sacrificed what I want to do and love to appease and please my parents but that leaves me as the one who has to live with regrets for the rest of my life. I think the first thing to address is that in any relationship communication is key. You and your bf might want to get married, but you should be clear that you want to keep things they way they are if that’s truly what you want. It seems he has an expectation for you to perhaps “drop that bomb” for him but that’s a very difficult thing for you to do since I’m assuming you don’t really want to be estranged from your family. So I’d focus on talking about that with your bf first and working that out and see what comes next. I wish you the best and hope you are able to find peace though and that everything works out. I’m here if you want to talk in DM about it :)

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