In August of 2019, I hit rock bottom. I was working at a T1 law firm as a summer associate, and was constantly drinking (before work, during work, and of course at all the after work social events). Things got so bad for me someone reported my drinking to HR and an investigation was launched. I have been sober since. But now I am applying to be admitted to the bar and the character and fitness committee is making me relive my darkest time on repeat. It is very triggering. (Contn in comments)

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How are you maintaining your sobriety? In AA I learned that my dark past is my greatest asset, so long as I share it with other alcoholics and it helps them to recover.

I can’t change the past, but I needed all that sh*t to happen for me to understand that I had an uncontrollable disease.

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Thank you Director 1. I spoke to my interim sponsor (my original sponsor left Manhattan due to covid). Revisiting steps 4 and 5 helped a lot.

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I am happy to be sober, but reliving this time of my life makes me want to go and numb the pain

What assholes. Alcoholism is a disease. They wouldn’t grill someone who overcame throat cancer. They’d call him a hero. Hang in there

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How were you drinking during work?

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