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Daily Reflection 1/21

I messed ups no need help. Idk where to turn.
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One of the best things I ever heard about this issue is the elevator goes to the basement; you can get out at any time.
Bowl Leader
There’s a term called “hitting a spiritual bottom”.
I might not be living in a tent under a bridge and drinking from a paper bag, but my soul certainly feels that way. You don’t have to lose everything and everyone to start the journey of recovery. Hitting a super low bottom just makes it easier to surrender, though surrender is an option for anyone at any point.
It took me going to several meetings before I realized that I have the disease of alcoholism and that AA is the best thing (for me) that I can do about it. I’ve been sober for almost 5 years and I first walked into the rooms having no idea why I was there and what I was hoping to get out of it.
Lastly, sometimes it’s necessary to change a profession if it is in direct conflict with recovery, but folks have gotten and stayed sober doing all sorts of jobs. Working a strong AA program allows me to go almost anywhere, and also to know when I don’t belong somewhere.
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I was a bartender for 12 years and never considered myself at rock bottom or at all like any of the addicts I knew. Doesn't mean I wasn't one, I just couldn't see it. If it feels like it's time, or if you have the personal motivation to want to get sober, then it's time. You don't need to be at your lowest to know you need help.
Yeah I had a bunch of high lows. But never anything ‘terrible’. I just realized I had no idea who I was, and I didn’t like where my life was at, didn’t feel like my actions aligned with who I thought I was or wanted to be…I was just tired of not being excited about life or proud of myself. And anytime I tried to change that id prioritize getting drunk instead. What motivates me is just attempting to be excited about life, and feeling serenity as opposed to self pity or hate. No arrests etc…but it’s different for everyone
Bowl Leader
The Y.E.T.s scare me, as in it hasn’t happened to me YET. And just in case I think I’m too smart or wealthy or attractive or lucky, YET stands for “You’re Eligible Too”. Haha, AA and our clever slogans. :)
I couldn't deal with the abject terror of the morning after any longer, and general sense that the "other shoe" would drop at any point. I genuinely wanted to get off the not-so-merry-go-round for several years prior to that, and had brief periods of sobriety many times, but always ended up telling myself after a time that it wasn't so bad to be able to justify taking that next drink. My experience has been that it never gets any better as I continue to drink, only worse, and my only decision is in how bad I let it get before I step away from the bar (again).
For me, I either had to make time, or the time would be made for me.
I could either take the time to figure out my finances/work/living situation, or I would lose them all and have nothing but time and nothing to come back to. My lack of choosing the first option, meant the second occurred and I had to start from scratch.
You always have a choice, and not making one is a choice in and of itself.
For me, I for sure hit a state of simply not caring if I was alive or not. I wasn't trying to die, but accepted that that outcome was just as good/bad as being alive. I sadly stayed in that state for probably 12 months before I decided to start making riskier decisions to feel something - anything again. From there, I hit my bottom pretty quickly. You convince yourself that substances set you free when in reality they keep you in chains. I'm sober and have never felt so (spiritually) free. ♥️
When I woke up in the er with 26 stitches in my forearm and 7 in my shoulder same side from falling on glass
Everyone's bottom is different and personal, but what the Bowl Leader about a spirtual bottom is spot on. Ive been in AA for five months, and the most eye opening aspects are how small a part the 'stop drinking and using drugs' aspect is, and how much of it is examining why alcoholics and addicts work and think the way we do, and what to actually change your life/mindset and 'do' with your sobriety. Ive never had a DUI, lost a job due to my drinking, etc. For a long time I rationalized I was fine or, at worse, a functioning alcoholic, so I didnt need sobriety or recovery. I even told myself this when my wife started going to Al Anon mtgs during the Covid lock down - that she was being a drama queen about things and (I felt) my drinking was fine. I am developing a clarity about my life I have never had before (at age 56 no less) even though Im only on my sixth step, 5 months in. The best way to 'know' in my opinion is too go to some meetings, read the first 165ish pages of the AA Big Book, and how stuff hits you, or not. Its free, no judgement, and the religous aspect is very open (although that last part will vary by meeting group and type). I hope I never drink again, and I feel a sense of optimism about my life and relationships Ive never felt before.
Bowl Leader
It took me almost a full year to complete the steps (I’ve since done them two more times); everyone is on their own timeline though there’s definitely a zone that is likely:
- “too fast” to absorb what you’re doing and reading , and
- “too slow” where you aren’t recovering fast enough and one’s alcoholism can creep back in.
5 months and step 6 is awesome! There is literally no substitute for doing the work. :)
Lastly, I’m always super careful to say “spiritual” and not “religious”. At the beginning of my AA journey I felt ‘uncomfortable’ with the word “spiritual” but I knew I HATED the word “religious”. I’ve since come to cherish my spirituality and have had no need to accept anything resembling dogmatic or organized religion.
One day at a time!
2nd DUI, had no money, no job, had to 100% rely on family for support. Couldn’t even afford a cell phone. I know I’m extremely lucky to have the support that I did, but it was definitely my bottom. I had a series of failed jobs and a spotty work history, making it hard to find new work. It was a vicious cycle and even though I prayed to God that I wouldn’t wake up in the morning, I still woke up everyday. Sobriety was literally the only answer.