My anxiety makes me good at my job. My incessant checking, and double checking, and analyzing has earned me praise, trust, and early promotions. Sometimes I wonder, if I were to take medication to give myself some relief, and to stop the panic attacks, would I be less productive? And then I wonder, do I value my own health so little? But I’m so validated by my performance...sad isn’t it? Hope I’m not alone.

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Have faith in the fact that your anxiety isnt doing the work, you are.

The habits wont go away, but the heart palpitations will

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Hi. I have diagnosed generalized anxiety disorder and severe depression, I take meds on and off to manage it, and have been doing so for the past fifteen years. I definitely think the qualities exacerbated by the anxiety makes me a better producer for similar reasons, but it also held me back to a certain degree because I could easily get fixated on small things that don’t matter, or I’d get panicked over things that don’t need it.

When I take my meds, I don’t lose my attention to detail or knowledge. But it does calm down the panic so I can identify the important bits, it gets rid of the pounding heart and lump in my throat, and I can actually focus.

You’re not alone and it’s not sad. It’s a reality that you deal with, but it’s not THE ONE THING that makes you good at your job. Like, my disorders don’t define who I am as a person, they’re just part of the bigger picture.

If you have any q’s about anything, my DMs are open.

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Thank you. ❤️

Not alone.

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Hi, same boat 👋

Your attention to detail would stick around, but in a way that’s manageable and not all consuming/driven by fear. That sounds really lovely and worth a shot!

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I’ve had the same experience as Producer1. Zoloft has changed my life. I let anxiety run me as a formula for success for years. Finally my therapist suggested meds for generalized anxiety. I avoided it for awhile, concerned it would make me lose my Type A edge or become lax on details. Just the opposite. Plus I feel so much more in control of my perspective. Or should I say, I found one again.

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I have been avoiding meds for years, contradictorily, out of fear they will numb me or I won’t have that edge that makes me successful. I think I’m finally at a point where that fear is not greater than the fear making me ill daily. Thank you for this response!

I too had increíble anxiety and was always striving for perfection but in a really sick way. Like one time I think I looked and looked at a single piece of creative more than 500x. It didn’t help and nobody cared. I realized I wasn’t living my life but living in my head. I take meds now and I am much happier, lighter and still successful. Get help and don’t live in fear.

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Thank you. Your response sounds eerily similar to me and I’m excited to find relief too

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