45yr female, divorced after a 12 yr marriage. Been in the dating pool. It has been more than horrible.
I connected with someone from my past, were together for a mear 4 months. I thought he was everything I was longing for. Turns out, he's an abuser, complete liar, narcissist, thief, just horrible.

Im more destroyed now than I was after my marriage. I am broken, I no longer have any direction in life or hope to even get out of bed.
Not sure why im posting or what i need.

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I truly appreciate all the comments and everyone giving advice. Im definitely struggling with this new life. But I am finding myself, which is the whole point. I cant love someone else if I dont love myself, right....
Ill get thru this but thank you, love you all.

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That sounds unbelievably painful, especially after trusting someone from your past. It makes sense that you’d feel lost right now. The fact that you’re even reaching out and talking about it shows you haven’t given up completely — that’s strength, even if it doesn’t feel like it. What’s been helping you get through the days, even a little?

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I have been through what you are going through. The need for connection is very real esp after a long term marriage. And even more so if you had a difficult marriage / divorce. I’m around the same age as you and was married for 20 years. The dating “scene” is so different now and the pool of quality people in our age range is so much smaller. Dating sites scare. For me, spending time on my own helped me figure out what I wanted and needed. I leaned into my friends and family to help me get through the low times. Therapy was also very helpful. In the last year, I’ve met some people organically, and I’ve noticed that I was more focused on getting to know the person versus being wrapped up in the outcome. While none worked out (there was one guy that I really liked), it didn’t knock me off my feet like before. Hang in there!!!

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As painful as it sounds, you have to first heal and be able to stand on your own feet first. Then you can look for a relationship.

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Try being single for once. Chasing after men sfter marriage is over is not a good idea. When you are single you have peace.

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Not everyone is the same. For sure

You need a friend

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Good to vent. Happy to listen

I'm so glad it only took 4 months for him to reveal his true nature and for you to get out. That takes strength and courage.

Look up this letter and read it. It's by : Michael Josephson called: "LIVE A LIFE THAT MATTERS".

The dating pool is beyond ridiculously oh my God I'm it's over for me I'm done

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