I (M) told a former colleague (F) that they hurt me by devaluing me followed with over 40+ days of silent treatment causing me to feel worthless, broken and better off not existing among other affects. She responded by gaslighting me saying; she never meant that, attempted to weaponize past life experiences, shift blame saying I’m hurting them for saying they hurt me. I replied that she is being emotionally abusive. I was quickly discarded continuing the abuse cycle.

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You gotta find a way to create your own closure. It's not healthy to let them have this much weight over you, and you can't guarantee she's going to give you any peace. Being discarded is your opportunity to end the cycle. Why should you let it continue? Do you have feelings for this colleague? These kinds of words and heavy feelings aren't normal for work relationships.

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This is intense. You seem to want and expect more from this person than they are willing to give. It may not be manipulative, or abusive- they may just have needed/still need a break. You mentioned sharing daily affirmations with them, which suggests you needed and were used to getting a lot of support from this person. Maybe that wasn’t good for them.

Can you possibly reframe this in a way where they were trying to tell you their side and not be abusive but just honest and protecting their own needs? Maybe there were hints that they needed something different from the relationship, and yo were not able to read them or transitions that way? Maybe they stepped back to help you see that. Or maybe they were just needing something different. They don’t owe you any explanation other that that. And saying your accusations are hurting them also- that could be true! The friendship has ended, or at least changed, and that can be painful for both parties- even the one who initiated it. Especially if the person (you) is taking it badly and lobbing accusations of gaslighting and laying a ton of guilt at their feet.

Work on yourself and your happiness. Get some therapy and talk it through. On the other side of that you can decide what to do with the relationship. But right now no one friend can be responsible for your happiness, it’s too much to lay on her!

I’m sorry your colleague ignored you, but to accuse the colleague of driving you to suicide is problematic on your end. I think you need to look inward with the help of a professional.

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It doesn’t seem like all the therapy talk is helping. You might need to find another way to look at the situation.

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It was a relieving to tell her what she was doing in detail even if the reaction involved; gaslighting, denying, minimizing and using my experiences against me, shutting down communication etc. have been in a similar situation nearly a decade ago, so I was able to recognize the toxic behavior faster.

The part that is unresolved is the being able to understand why she would suddenly behave the way she has and knowingly inflict pain. Also going from sharing affirmations with me daily to saying I’m not worth time, energy or presence and making it know I can be easily discarded.

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