Growing up was rough. On my 8th birthday my dad had an accident that led to this death a few days later. He was a good man who took care of us all (I had 3 siblings now 2; lost 1 few years ago). I'm in a good place in life right now I only find myself in the last 5years shedding a tear once a while when I'm alone. It startles me because I was a tough kid who didn't cry and just soaked it all in and rolled with it. I'm almost 40 and can't explain what's happening with these tears.

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My dad died in 1999 when I was 23. Only in the last few years have I truly been sad and miss the relationship now I have my own kids and can see that dynamic.

Reading your story feels sad as my son is now 8 and for him to lose his dad would be such a big hole in the family. Talk about it to someone. It’s good to let it out once in a while.

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It happens, the dam will sometimes bust once in a while

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OP, this post hit me hard. It’s okay to let one out and most importantly it’s okay to be vulnerable at times!

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You’ve been through a lot — it’s ok to let it out

I am so sorry you went through that. That’s a lot for a person to handle, let alone a child. It’s ok to feel sad sometimes, even years later

So very sorry.

Grief is ongoing - even 20 years later.

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