I embellished my billing times in December. I was so depressed and didn't know what to do because I had already got in trouble that my billable hours were low so i did it. I almost committed suicide last month, so I haven't been in a good mental state in a while. Now the attorneys are starting to find out what I did, and I know I suck for this. I'm trying to decide if I should just quit now before they fire me.

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Please seek help. Find a psychiatrist that can help you work through this. This moment , that decision does not define you as person or an employee. Be honest with your bosses. If they aren’t willing to work with you and support you then leave. Take time to help yourself, and then seek new employment. Everyday is a chance to be a better version of yourself. Everyday holds a little hope things will get better. Prayers and good vibes you find your happy soon!

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Please discuss with your counsellor/line manager and tell them you made some mistakes on your timesheets and need to correct them and need to take some time off sick to recover your mental health. No job is worth thinking about taking your life, and definitely not your flipping timesheets. This can get fixed but please talk to someone at work and get this sorted out, and take some time to get your head straight. This is just a blip, and it can get fixed easily.

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Please focus on your mental health. Your self worth is not tied to a job. You can always find a new job but if you make temporary problems permanent by committing suicide, that's it, there's no rebounding, there's no going back. Ask for help. You are strong not weak for asking for help.

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Are you in Chicago by chance? This sounds like one of our folks.

Anyway, please take some time to take care of yourself. No job is worth your mental health. Take a look at your benefits and see if you can get some help for therapy or medication if you need it.

I feel for you because I've been there years ago and missed weeks of work, medication helped me through that time. I still battle with depression and anxiety so it can be a fight to push through those days. Thankfully, they're a lot more rare. 💗 Hope you get some proper downtime to heal. Don't beat yourself up or get into a guilt spiral. Take these days one nibble at a time.

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Proud of you paralegal! I hope things get better and I'm glad that you have a great support team at your company. Best of luck on your journey 💞.

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1. I hope you are feeling better and are seeking help.
2. Don’t quit, let it play out and start looking for other jobs, in the meantime.
3. Join consulting, we “embellish” hours every week and it’s sort of encouraged.

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Please know you can always contact 800-273-8255

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Leave this job. Prioritize your life and mental health. Stress of making hours is not worth it

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How did they find out?

I do this to allocate hours to meet the 40 min on days I had less than 8 hours. Should be okay if you note it.

Hope you pull through OP! 🙏🏼

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