Quit the booze back in September. It mostly hasn't been that hard but I can't get a grip on my emotions this week. Feeling overwhelming sadness for no real reason. (Cont)

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Thank you all. D1 and M1 are right, I need to address the underlying issues that are causing the misery. Of course the trouble is finding the positivity and energy to work on the issues when you least feel like it. But these times will pass.

Anyway I didn't drink yesterday and I'm committing to not drinking today. I did take a looooong hard stare at the booze aisle in the grocery store yesterday but luckily you can't ingest ethanol through your eyeballs.


Can't stop thinking about how good a few beers would be right now. I've been eating my feelings instead, which I guess is better than drinking but not great after all the work I've put into fitness recently.

I know rationally that there are a lot of good reasons why I put down the bottle, and picking it up won't help anything. Can't help the urge to wallow in booze and misery though.

Were you drinking to maybe mitigate these types of feelings before? I’d look into how to work on the issues causing them or finding alternative ways to address them. This used to push me to drink too but isn’t a factor so much anymore

Same here. Lots of sadness sometimes even though everything is really great. My kids are happy and healthy and my wife is sticking with me and I have a great job. Need to address what’s eating at you without drinking.

Feel the same way about my DOC. Reminding myself I’ve had years when I can’t even get a month right now so it’s important. Good luck

I’m in a funk as well; it’s normal and natural. Something I read recently in “Walk in dry places” that helped:

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I felt really down when I stopped drinking. I thought it was going to be what turned my life around. In the summer I had an incident and I swore off alcohol for 2 months but replaced with THC which isn’t the right thing to do unless maybe microdosed. I don’t have any willpower and feel weak. And now i have to call out sick tomorrow or attempt to telework again. I’ve technically had the flu since Thursday from my job because I’m crumbling under the pressure to decide whether or not to take another job. Hence why I drank and lost my shit completely. The inability to handle sent me down a downward spiral and I’m scared.

I hadn't heard the phrase "egomaniac with an inferiority complex" before but it totally resonates. I see now it comes from AA. Will look into it


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