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You are comparing life today to the one that was literally killing you, OP. I've cone to understand that it is the nature of the alcoholic mind to always want more of anything and everything, and we will seek that out to our detriment when unchecked. Not just drinking too much, it also manifests itself in spending too much, eating too much, " dating" too much, partying too much, etc.
Yes, when compared to a life of excess, sober life will seem boring until we are able to recognize the excesses of our past and the fact that none of it truly brought peace of mind and happiness.
There is a root cause of your anxiety, and a year, you can now be certain that alcohol has nothing to do with it. I suggest that you get honest with your spobsor and talk through what you are feeling.
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I do talk really openly with sponsor. I’m on several waitlists for a new therapist… to try to get to the root of these anxieties. Back on step 1 actually to address your paragraph 2 of your comments ✌🏻
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The book says, “our drinking was but a symptom”. This means our real troubles stem from something likely much deeper, and much older. I’ve learned that I drank because I was raised in a dysfunctional home that lacked healthy models of affection and love, and was instead ruled via control and anger. I’m seeing a therapist now to address these things, but it was a big “a-ha” moment when I could finally get passed the denial of my upbringing. I also started ACA (Adult Children of Alcoholics), which is another 12-Step program, to address these things. My gut says that you may need to explore some other area of healing (in addition to maintaining the commitment to AA) in order to find relief.
And I also believed that an exciting, hedonistic lifestyle was the way to go; however, I see now that even that was a way to “get high” from the excitement of it. And I’m into extreme sports, but I try to balance those activities in a way that they don’t get out of control or become dangerous.
One of the hardest things in the world for someone in recovery is to learn to sit with our feelings. To be ok not being ok. To feel uncomfortable and know that it won’t kill us. And to trust that so long as I keep doing the next right thing, to the best of my very imperfect human abilities, everything will work out exactly how it’s supposed to.
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Thanks for this. Having a particularly difficult morning worrying about something I can’t talk to anyone in the program about because it involves politics. I really don’t know how I’m gonna survive being sober during this election year.
I got sober while single and childless (I still am, actually I was seeing someone when I got sober but they drank and used more than me and had no interest in stopping so I ended things for my sobriety). My sponsor and their spouse got sober while single and childless. Several of my friends in sobriety got sober while single and childless. Actually most of the people I got sober with who were doing it for a kid or spouse are either drunk or still only have like 30 days sober in the time it took me to get a year.
I have an app that forces you to put a reason for your sobriety in it to be able to use it to count your days. At first the reason I put in it was "I'm just trying to avoid the worst expierences life has to offer (e.g. homelessness, prison, insane asylum)." Several months into sobriety I added another reason "I want to get to have the best expierences life has to offer."
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I started a new meeting recently - had 33 the first night, 22 last week. Sponsoring. Working steps, praying, meditating, licensed yoga teacher, lift weights, have a lot of friends, on meds, in therapy, give guys rides, secretary of my home group… I don’t know what the answer is half the time. I’m doing all this stuff but I still have anxiety, and don’t like being alone, and worry about my future. I’m on several waiting lists right now for a new therapist to see if that helps. It’s been over a year of sobriety and doing “whatever it takes” but here it is 1am and can’t sleep bc i’m sick to stomach and anxious about being alone.
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I put all my cards in AA like I was told, and consequently I’m alone now. All I do is meetings and service work and fellowship stuff. Have no life outside of AA, and no love life. This is no way to live. I have a feeling this isn’t going to last much longer. It would be easier to do this if I had a life outside AA like most people, but I don’t even know how to start one now.
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I guess I feel like there’s not a choice sometimes and it’s inevitable, and coming for me, because this kind of life isn’t for me. I find it boring.
You matter, too. Some people might quit because they don't want to lose certain people in their life but what about yourself? It's amazing that you've maintained your sobriety for over a year so far. Keep going. Like another commenter mentioned, using alcohol and drugs is just a symptom to a deeper issue. If you can't get in to see a therapist in person, try betterhelp.com. You'll be matched up with someone very quickly and be able to meet with them virtually. Starting therapy on their platform a few years ago was my only option and I'm grateful to have found someone so helpful. In addition to that, I also read a lot of self-help books and listened to several podcasts on healing trauma. You've removed the alcohol but not the pain behind it. I would also recommend looking into inner child hypnotherapy either with a licensed therapist or looking into the vast amount of online resources for this type of inner work.